十句值得考虑的话!

第一句
如果我们之间有1000步的距离
你只要跨出第1步
我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步

第二句
通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人才是真正爱你的人

第三句
付出真心　才会得到真心
却也可能伤得彻底
保持距离　就能保护自己
却也注定永远寂寞

第四句
有时候　不是对方不在乎你
而是你把对方看得太重

第五句
朋友就是把你看透了　
还能喜欢你的人

第六句
就算是believe　
中间也藏了一个lie

第七句
真正的好朋友
并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
而是在一起　
就算不说话也不会感到尴尬

第八句
没有一百分的另一半
只有五十分的两个人

第九句
为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人
为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友
为你的难过而难过的
就是那些　该放进心里的人

第十句
冷漠　有时候并不是无情
只是一种避免被伤害的工具
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心目中喜欢谁,心目中爱谁,要分得一清二楚.确认自己要的是什么,再努力向它往前冲!
有时,缘分未尽的缘分,或许到最后才会发现原来爱的人,其实就是一直都放不下的它.
在它还没走之前,请要求它留步.请要求它跟你重逢.不管未来的路有多难.
相信自己,对爱有希望,看未来远一点.为自己的幸福而着想!

When it all falls apart. Happy Chinese New Year dear readers.

Happy chinese new year everyone.
Happy "牛" year!
Chinese New Year is tomorrow. Reunion dinner is tomorrow. Family members will be back for the dinner. Catching up to do. Busy busy Chinese New Year plans for our family.
Why haven't I got the Chinese New Year mood?Perhaps Is have something
in my heart that is bugging. No matter what. I wish all of you a very
Happy Chinese New Year.

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What happens when something you really treasure and love falls apart?
What would you do?
Would you choose to continue to love?
Or would you choose to move on?
So what about when you have fell in love?
What about when you have that someone in your mind that you can't keep yourself from thinking?
Why won't most of us decide on something so simple?
What do you want, what is the best for you?

It's simple.
Because we're spoilt for choices.
Material things, people, money, care and love.
What do we really need in life?
Love? Money? Or Happiness?
No one really knows.

To those who are in the death-bed, health is the most important.
To those who have everything in their life, love and family is at the top of their list.
To those who have nothing at all, money is the most reasonable thing to get.
To those who have everything in average, they turn greedy and want everything instead.
Nobody is really grateful for what they have.
Nobody is really appreciating what they got.
Nobody is really doing all these except when they lose what they have.

I've gotta admit. There are a lot of things I have to admit here.
No. I don't appreciate my family until my family nearly broke up.
Somehow I appreciated your existence when you're with me.
But I want you to always stay by my side till I finally lose you.

I don't appreciate what my family have given me.
Not until when I've finally have some sense knocked into my mind.
I love you from the day we were together until now even we have already separated.
It's unfair actually. Love is actually unfair.

Hurting each other is a way to express our disappointment for each other and saying those things which are so hurtful to hear so that we regret losing each other.
Hell yeah. I regretted.
But you know that you yourself have done the mistake too.

It all really is just like a couple fighting for more love for each other.
What really matters is the feeling of love towards each other.
Fate has decided to ask us to separate for a while. Destiny is not calling yet.
Perhaps one day when Destiny calls, we'll be together again.
I never believed in fate actually.
I believe in myself.
But somehow, I am lacking confidence.

649 days of being together. We've been through lots together.
Laughters, sadness, happy times, dull times, hard times, poor times, richer times.
From the days of schooling time, till the time we work at the same mall, till the time we spend most of the celebrations together...Until Christmas last year. The only celebration we did not celebrate together. It's a pity actually. Been through so much but lost each other because of our mistakes. We could have been the happy ones going through Christmas together. But such a pity... Another day till day 650. Another 2 months till our supposedly 2 years anniversary.

I have no more strength to start all over again.
Not anytime soon. There would only be the day after day 649, or it would be day 1 with another one. Not anytime soon... That is all I know...
有人说,当一个人就快要死时,会很后悔所错过的机会.也有人说,当一个人快要死的时候,会苦苦的要求有再一次的机会.其实,当我们真的发现自己真的爱上却没有机会在一起的时候,也会不知不觉的觉得自己快要死了.少了那一份爱.少了那一份情.一切,果然是会不一样."不到床头心不死."
我们之间的爱情故事,也可以说是个很幸福的故事,却到最后变得很悲哀.每一天想着你.
为什么明明相爱的对方,会变成这样呢?人生啊...
-我爱你.2516.520.1314.我爱你-

>家<

相信每个人都有心中都有个"家"的字.
家里有多温馨.有多温暖.
农历新年快到了.
我怎么都不觉得有新年气氛呢?
也许心中有了一种空虚的地方.
所以感觉到特别的不习惯.
每年这个时候都有很多东西要做.
但是,发觉自己变了.
变得很乏味.
圣诞节也是,新年也是,农历新年也一样.
怎么家里好想发生了好多事情?
让每个人都喘不过气来呢?
真的好烦.
当这些事情发生时,我忽然很伤心.
很想找你.但是,偏偏就不让我找到...
为什么我在感情和亲情的世界里,总是不能说服自己,不会有事的,一切会好起来的...
为什么为什么为什么我这么脆弱!!!!
为什么我不能在这两方面都有比较好的想法呢!positive thinking...WHY?
也许...在这两方面,我都很重视吧...
没有了亲情,有爱情就好...但是我暂时没有伴...只有一个心里爱的人,却得不到的人
没有了爱情,有亲情就好...但是家庭不好...那又怎样?

以下是给姐姐的话...
姐姐,你已经快要大学毕业了...请你想一想...一直以来妈妈是怎样对你,而你是怎样对妈妈...同样的,我也会想...我自己也不是很完美...但是你的成绩等等都比我好很多...我不是说我不会读书,而是在爸爸妈妈眼中你是个很好的女儿..他们不想要你跟他也因为一时的冲动而离家出走.这样吃亏的一定是你!还有就是,我们两个小时候到中学都总是会被打被骂...偶尔也会听到她念我们那些三字经..讲真的..我也是很TL的..但是她是我们的妈..骂得了一时,骂不了以世.
她也曾经跟我说过,只要我一进大学,她就不管我了.
我也同意.所以,还是做好自己的本分.能避免那些麻烦就避免吧!
老实说,我是觉得他应该是个好人.但是由于皮肤的颜色,爸爸妈妈他们也无奈.怎样也接受不了...
或许吃一些,你会知道真正爱你的人在哪里..如果命中注定世他,那就是他 ...
他们也要你开心,所以不要再吵下去了好吗...
我也为你的事情而哭了..
我不要我们的家破...


本来应该属于我跟你之间的家...已经不懂主人在哪里了...
我不想要再失去我的家...因为我已经不能再失去任何东西了...
要是姐姐跟妈妈之间可以用时间来冲淡...那就好...
我跟你之间的事情...也希望可以吧!
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心,我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情,我们要再努力.
怎样才幸福呢?请抉择.

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谈些外题的...
今天呢,有很多ex-student..我们的年的回来拿成绩单...
然后呢...差不多每个都有着长头发...
我呢,就在食堂看到他们...
正在跟我和朋友吃饭的A朋友呢就说...
"哇...每个都长头发...."
我就说"哇....你羡慕啊???"
B朋友就说"不要担心,我们还有9个月罢了就有了!"
C朋友就说"哎哟,他们有长头发是他们的事啦,他们是学院生嘛..我们大学生才有这样的头发的(指着自己的头发)...我们以后的头发会比他们更美"
我就说"你在自我安慰嘛?????"
C朋友说"真的吗...他们只是学院生...我们是未来大学生呢..."
整座的人就给她起到爆..这种自我安慰的态度也有...真是炸到!

My BAO BEI~!!!

I've been waiting for these shoes to go on sale for a VERYYYYYYYY LONG time!
LOL.
Finally I had my hands on this pair or Vans Classic Slip On shoes on my hands!
And I paid for it myself. XD.
Knowing mom and dad would kill me if i told them I want them to buy another shoe for me.
LOLS. Well, dad really said No to me.
Anyways.. here are the pictures of my bao bei.

My bao bei dragon head VANS.


It's original. And NOPE. I'm not buying the fake ones. Cause the fake ones costs Rm55. And the quality is much harder and the original ones are softer.
Good buy you think? HEHE.
It's only Rm85. FOR A PAIR OF CLASSIC VANS.
It was on sale on a 50% discount. Been waiting since last year.
Was supposed to get it with you during last year. But.. Oh well.. Things do have their own way ...
My precious CNY shoes..
Oh yeah..
Cny is around the corner..
I have been making plans with my friends to visit their house and dinner in jemputree.
After that will go to BED again. HEHE.
Alcoholic? XD Oh well. i just like being numb and don't think so much.
Although drinking is not the right way to make things normal. but
It is just a once in a while thing between me and my friends...
Looking forward to the reunion dinner this weekend.
Coussies and fireworks and most importantly.. ANGPAUS! LOTS OF ANGPAUS.
Shall be in Thailand during CNY too. But peeps, don't worry. Will get souvenirs for all of ya!
Psst.... Try my best okie?? That is if i don't spend all the money I change... HEHE

Thailand brand called GreekLight.

Saw this brand in Thailand for the last trip I went on november 2008.
Wanted to buy the stuff but budget was quite limit as I didn't change any money to buy my own stuffs. SO... This coming trip there, I'll make sure I get the shirts and some accesories from there. HEHE. Anyways..
You guys can check it out here
The website for this clothing line. It's kinda urban street style. And I can bet you will not find it here. NO! okay? So don't worry wearing the same shirt with someone in the club or the streets. Unless that person also go there and buy laaaaaaa..DUH...

Their cosmetic bags or can be used as a pencil case either.


Lanyards...

Nice pants eh??? HEHE. Hopefully they have my size...

Skinny ties. See their Logos? cool...

The shirt i'm getting. Look at the collar. Hard to find here.


Jeng Jeng JENG pants!


Sweet and sharp hot pants.

I (hearts*) greeklight!

Want this type of porter bag. HEHE. bought a backpack last trip to thailand. Hopefully i can find a porter bag like this there too.
Till then. School was okay. Everything's getting back to its own pace except for something I don't really want to mention. Shall just let it be then. If you finally can stand up by yourself. I'll leave lo. Cos u won't ever need me anymore mah. SO... take it as a one year challenge. Try not to think too much about you. And will stay positive.

Suddenly...

Saw this man at Gurney Drive Hawker's Bay. Gotta pay to take pictures with him. It was Christmas Eve that day. Lols. Suddenly found that I didn't blog about my Christmas eve. Went there around 10 with my cousins after dinner. Met up with my homiess.. Some of them couldn't come due to transportation problems and others...Went to Chilli's for Margaritas... Then took my cousin for Muar Chee. Then countdown and head back to my grandma's place.



Didn't take quite a lot of pics that day. Wasn't quite in the mood for anything. Was pretty disappointed that day. Sighs. oh well. The past is the past. No point mentioning it already!
This is the 27th Dec 2008.
Went to Town Steamboat. Soon Ling's bf is here. After steamboat, went to Bed for cocktails. Then Negg and Josephine dropped me at my grandma's place. And took lotsa pictures with the baby cousin. XD


Me in Bed. Obviously...Almost but not yet drunk. Had a bit of everything. But ordered 2 for myself. HEHE

Vodka Martini. Smells nice. but then.. tastes weird... Ya'll who do science stream will know what I mean by drinking "soap". The experiment in which we did in Chemistry during Form 4. Good ol days'. Too bad I'm doing accountings. AND I'M LOVING IT! But nice drink after all.

Submarine. Josephine ordered 3 in total. But I guess I drank one whole glass myself.
It's beer. with a shot glass in it. BEER+WINE= not yet KO but will if you drink more.

I ordered this too. Cranberry Daiquiri. Soury and Cranberry taste. I like this kinda sour and refreshing alcohols. HEHES

This is Tequila with Orange Juice ordered by Soon Ling's bf. I eventually had a sip of it and I like tequilas. HEHES
Soon, all of us then went back. Soon Ling went to Gurney and the couples dropped me at my grandma's house. Went into a sudden deep and down mood and i wept... Just before I reach my granny's house, i stopped. Knowing that my parents will know that I cried.. I just had to stop.. But right now.. Nothing will make me cry anymore..
My pictures taken for Jin Siang and with Jin Siang.
My cute lil bubbly cousin brother.

His PJs are very nice. He came quite a lot of times and.. dang.. his clothes.. damn chun!
I love babies. but i don't like when they cry. They're cute. But not when they cry.
Sighs. I guess I'll have to play with other people's baby then. XD


He's trying to stand up. My Grandfather was half asleep and he touched the baby's head. And everything was so wonderful at that time. The old ones are like blessing the kid. HEHE

Jaclyn ahhhhh....u know how to carry one or not....
She says she can smell alcohol from my body. LOLS. i drank a lil bit too much? LOLS
Mum put him on top of my shoulders. He's grabbing my hair and like riding a horse...............


WOOOO. ANGRY HOR!?

EXCITED? my neck's gona break!

TL d....

Do we even look a like? LOLS

SEE! he so cute when he smiles like that. got dimple lei!


Awwww.....mwahs****
Cute and cuddly... XD
Will see you around CNY then!
More BED opportunities to come in the future peeps. XD

What-so-ever.

School's starting tomorrow! Upper Six here I am.
Went to school yesterday to get to know my classmates and all that.
This year I'm in U6KC. Sighs.
Not that I didn't do well or what. But, all my kakis' are split up.
Perhaps it is because we were blacklisted last year?
Sobs. SObx. Sobs.
But still, gona meet my homies again during Economics, Mathematics and Accountings Class.
Hehas.
Nothing will change our friendship kays?
So, I went to meet you yesterday. Fetched you up and down.
Well, I guess I won't have the chance to do that anymore in the future aight' ?
Now that you're with someone you like and all that...
When I dropped you off, you even said this will be your last time taking a ride in my car cause' u don't want to die that early...
Oh well, things have changed. You used not to complain much about me.
But I guess you really hate me.
I pushed you away you said.
I guess I really did.
You're giving me a year to prove how much I love you.
All I have to say is.
I'll be wasting my first 10-11 months giving all out on my studies.
I don't dare to hope and wish much already. Especially this year.
Hurts that much as how it hurted you I guess.
Well at least I know I'm not going to be ready for a relationship anytime soon.
Everything just happened so fast. And my mistakes are just so unforgivable to you.
I just wish you would be happy and all that.
Sincerely, I won't be doing any nasty tricks to win you back.
Perhaps it is just TIME that can heal our wounds.
And maybe one day when you fall in love the one you are with, or maybe you have already...
I'll let go. Because I just want you to be happy. That's the most important thing.
I myself want to be happy too.
I know I can't continue being like this. I have to move on.
In just 2 months, on how I treated you, I regret and lost you.
As long as you're not getting married, I still have the chance.
As long as you've not fallen in love and found happiness yet, I still have the chance.
As long as you're a L****** in heart, I still have the chance.
Time to make it right. Perhaps, not now? I don't know.
If this one year, I happen to meet someone else, what would it mean?
That I've already given up?
If this one year, I happen to stay focus, how am I going to prove to you when you're not willing to open up anymore?
Not that I won't try. Only time can tell.
But there are lotsa choices and decisions to make right now.
And I have only myself as a guide.
How and What to prove in this one year? Slap me please...
FOCUS! STPM! 4 As! SMU! GIC! UM! UKM! UPM! U!