2 days before leaving penang for a much long awaited escape!

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

escaping to the city~~~~~

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in 2 days time, and exactly around 43 hours

= ))))

jeng jeng jeng jeng~

bringing lappie, dslr, digital cam, mp3, and vodka!

muahahhahaha! bringing oni one week's clothes

i get to wash em! muahahhaha!

excited. finally getting out of here.

finally leaving this miserable place.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~~

Gonna take shit loads of photos there.

shall be uploading to fb every now and then

see you guys next year~! = ))

= ?

???????

Don't know why I ain't happy.

Don't know why I ain't sad.

Don't know what I am feeling.

Perhaps this is the ending of a story, beginning of a new chapter...

Is this how I should feel?

Life's gotta move on, I'll move on.

On monday, I shall leave Penang.

To somewhere not many people knows who I am

What's more, what are friends for when they don't even have you in sight?

Life's a brief candle.

Behold its magnificence.

Something great will happen to me.

I'm positive.

But now, I shall just calm myself down before the new chapter of my life begins

Portraits photoshooting? Hmmm... nobody wants and nobody has the time

Perhaps I shall try composition and scenery this time

Bye bye Penang.

U miserable island!

Photos. Food. Birthday.

Mayhem~~~

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Other dinners...

Happy Birthday Splendy~!

Tribute for you. but with added photos from my previous dinners!

I'm Sorry. I can't be PERFECT.

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家， 然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸 里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。
——纯纯的“对不起” 。


男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。
男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那 么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起， 我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。

—— “对不起”的快乐 。



大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委 屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩 都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。
那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡 梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。

—— “对不起”也是一种承诺。



婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。
慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不 像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有 一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”

—— “对不起”，谎言的开始。


渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总 会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一 个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会 回家。

—— “对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。



女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。
那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的 观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己 的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子 上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……
许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫 喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。

—— 这样的“对不起”太伤人。


男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。
快递为男孩送来一个盒子。
男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。

“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎 么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再 为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄 得遍地麟伤。
离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。
对不起，我想我是真的累了。”

男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。
女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。

—— 原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。

那一年，男孩疯了。

每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，那对谁，都不好……把这个故事传下去，让你的朋友们知道，不要随意地说出对不起......

Money money money~~woes

Money

錢

↓

It can buy a House
可以用來買房子　

But not a Home
但是不能買一個家　

　

　It can buy a Bed
　可以用來買床　

But not Sleep
但是不能買睡眠

It can buy a Clock
可以用來買時鐘　

　But not Time
但是不能買時間

　
　It can buy you a Book
　可以用來買書　

But not Knowledge
但是不能買到知識

It can buy you a Position

可以用來買職位　

But not Respect
但是不能買到尊敬

It can buy you Medicine
可以用來買藥　

　But not Health
但是不能買到健康

It can buy you Blood
可以用來買血

But not Life
但是不能買回生命　

It can buy you Sex

可以用來買性行為　

But not Love
　但是不能買到真愛

　


So you see money isn't everything.
所以金錢不是萬能的　

I tell you all this because I am your Friend,
我之所以告訴你這些道理,是因為我是你真正的朋友

　

and as your Friend I want to take away your pain and suffering.....
而身為你的朋友,我想要消除你的痛苦
免除你所受的折磨

　 so send me all your money and I will suffer for you
所以把你的錢都　
寄來吧!　

我決定替你承受
這一切痛苦......　

　

　A true Friend than me you will never find.
你再也不會找到任何一個比我更真心的朋友了

　

CASH ONLY PLEASE

我只收現金，謝謝!

I just want to love you.

Flashbacks of what has happened in the past

Reminds me of what I've been through

still standing here.

i falled. but i managed to stand up.

right now....

an hour and a half to my macro paper

breathe easy......

it'll be better tomorrow...

wo xian zai zhen de hen bu kai xin

but what can i do?

let it flow like water

wishing one day, u'll smile happily from ur heart to ur loved one

i really wish you would really be happy for urself!

what you told me, really gave me a punch to my heart

I want to be the one

I want to love you

I want to be there for you

It's been a pretty amazing 70 days we've been together

I'm happy to have you.

But I'm not happy, because you're not happy.

I wish one day you'll realise

That all of those things aren't a big deal because I'm right here standing by you.

And hopefully, I have the chance to see you smile straight from your heart!

=')

Does it really matter to me?

Questions I've been askin myself...

Why am I feeling this way?

Why is it that I couldn't make you happy?

Why is it that sometimes I feel very down?

Why....

Today, you asked me whether I'd hate it if you were friends with tb's

I said not really. But in the case that person fancies you...

YES

You've been quite busy these few days...

I couldn't blame you for being busy... DUH*

But somehow... I just feel that you're not yourself nowadays...

I don't know why

Maybe i'm being sensitive or what...

I just feel very down lately

Maybe it's because what you've told me...

And what I saw in facebook...

Perhaps it's just an act of coincidence...

I text-ed you and said..

Don't tell anyone you've got me...

I lied..

I wanted everyone to know you've got me...

But all the actions you made...

Don't seem to make any sense that you really am happy to have me...

I don't know why it's hard for me to believe that someone really loves me

But I just know I really fell in love with you

What bothers me isn't those problems that couldn't be solved

We have a distance, i don't know what I should be doing to make you happy

As it seems that whatever I say...

You just won't laugh that much...

Maybe like you said...

You don't feel like talking...

Sighs...

I wana cry, but i can't cry out

I wana talk to you, but you don't feel like talking

I wana drink, but I've got a paper tmrw

I wana give up, but I can't do so... Not until you've found the one

Remember the promise i made to you?

Saying that i'll let go after exam finishes?

But in the end you said you wanted 520 days and going...

I was so happy and wanted to announce our relationship

But sadly... before it is even 100 days...

There is no more sign of it in your profile...

Perhaps, you just wana be mysterious...

I hope you're reading this...

Because I don't know what else could I do to tell you what I feel

Until you've found the one for you, I'll not give up.

*T.T*

I wana hold on to something to cry and let my sadness go away.

Having so many friends around me...

Which of you all are really there for me when I need you all?

Independent is a must to survive.

Shall wrap around myself and hide in my bed for a night.

Good night people.

The silence of the night is terrifying me.

I won't be able to speak to you tonight.

As the silence horrifies me. And your lips remained shut.

I wish you were happy with me.

I wish you are happy with me.

I wish you good luck in your paper tmrw.

I wish you will always remember these days when I'm gone.

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its just the opposite anyway. who cares?!