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Visvim Christo CLOT Royale!!!!!

GRRRRR.....***drool***

I want!!!!!

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It's just Love afterall...

跟你一起,真的好开心
虽然见面的机会不是常有
至少我懂得我还有一个你在远方想着我
但是我觉得我自己真的好差
我时不时就吃了不应该吃的醋
也夺走了你的私隐
也许我不应该讲这一句话
但是我已经说出去了
"也许你根本都不了解我..."
但是这一切不是你的错
是我很难把心中的苦说出来
所受过的伤害,不是我不要把它埋起来
而是无时无刻都有人在提醒着我在爱情里的错误
我答应自己不可以重犯
但却无法相信最爱的人
老实说,我很相信你
但只有一件事我好难说服自己
就是你跟我的其他前任不一样
也许之前的她把我的心弄得太糟糕了
我没有办法把黑白分清.到底什么话是真的
什么话是假的
很抱歉...昨晚忽然攻击你...问你...
影响到了你考试的心情...
而今天早上你也没回复我
所以我大概就知道你是在忙...还是在生我的气
你说你不介意...但是我介意...也很内疚
不过做了,承认了,我也答应了不再那样
原因是我不要你因为我而改变自己

有一天,如果你找不到我
请你勇往直前,不要再回头看我有没有偷偷在你后面跟着你
不,不是因为我要放弃你
而是我不值得你爱
宁愿选择默默爱你
也不想再伤害任何人
你是个很好的人,相信没有我在你身边,你会更幸福.
我就是爱吃比我好的人的醋.
我就是不喜欢我爱的人会犹豫她到底选对了对象吗
犹豫,似乎不应该存在.
爱,就爱.不爱,就放.

今天早上,之前疯迷追她的她来向我告白了
我什么也没有说...
也懂我告诉你的话,你也不理的...
所以我不会告诉你...等你看到我的部落格的时候
想问,就问.不想问,也懂.

Mistakes are done for us to remember what happened in the past.
Should we ever repeat the same mistake?
Maybe sometimes we should.
As it will let all of us live a happier life.
You just have to always remember what the mistake cost you.
What happened in the past cost my precious time of doing things in a better way.
What happened in the past also make me fail to believe in love actually is just a simple thing.
I just failed to believe and trust those who really love me.
But one thing I really did succeed was loving you with all my heart. But just in a wrong way.
What more, it's just Love afterall.
Had so many disappointments this year.
And yet, this time, I let myself down.
Knowing that it's my fault. And I have known it well long before I did it.
I'm sorry darling. I need more time to believe that girls are not always so bad.
It's enough that I've had it with her. I don't want to go through hell again.

Tomorrow's accounts paper, I'm almost prepared. I just need a few fixes on my knowledge and I'll definitely pass it!

GRRR. I despise you.

You think you're all that

But you ain't nothing but someone close to me

You think you're the best

Cos you're smarter than me

You may excel in academics

But I am pretty sure I'm gonna excel you in the future

You judge me for who I am

You judge me for what I'm doing

You judge me for what you don't know

Before you judge me, please judge yourself

And also THINK whether you have any excuse for yourself

I talked happily at night.

You? Sobbing away and always showing your fucked up face

At least I know I'm happy with someone else

YOU? Please, don't know where you're going after this

Wish you could just get some overseas job and SHOO AWAY!

Having you sitting beside me is like a hell to me

I still can't imagine how loud you type!

It's like thumping on the keyboard and expressing urself in a rude way to your lappie

Oh well, but ITS your lappie. not mine.

I just know I'll be good without you needing to order me!

I am who i am and you are just nothing to me!

Always making yourself feeling so sick

Gosh. Come ON! GO OUT AND LIVE LA!

Why are you staying here?

Even I couldn't stand the pressure being at home

and YOU? still wana find job here???

And you and your psycotic bf, goshh...

Till now I still can't forget how you both ditched me just to date

and what happened

Not because I'm not a forgiving person but just

what you both did was totally unacceptable.

I've forgiven you but that does not make me trust you again

You told me you're going down to KL for xmas

You told me you're a changed person now.

HELL NO! go and take a look at yourself in the mirror and give yourself a few good slaps!

WHO ARE YOU TO BE NAGGING WHAT I DO IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT?!?!??!

AT LEAST I'M NOT SOBBING AWAY EVERY NIGHT!

I HATE YOU! I DESPISE YOU!!!!!!!!!

I despise you who think you're all that and that smart.

But you just don't know what the hell you're losing of in your life.

Even mom said you're stupid for turning down the offer!

STUPIDO!

----一句的对不起

失望多了,是否每当听到<对不起>这三个字时都很害怕?
不敢想象下一句会是什么...
也许已经好久没人真心的只想为他们所做错的事情而向我道歉...
而不是想要跟我硬撑的缘故而跟我说道歉...
所以让我觉得每当心爱的她,对我说对不起这三个字时都很害怕
没有要怪之前的她把我搞成这样,这也只是代表我已经受够了她的一切
我愿意放开之前的一切,就只想好好的爱她.
之前的她教过我不可以随便对任何人说对不起
但有时我还是说了...
不是因为要给自己理由伤害别人
而只是很诚心的像某人说
但却有人对我说时我会愣了起来...
也许失望太过多次了...
我不懂我该怎么接受...一句简单的"对不起"

矛盾?Yes, i never said i was not!

一个简单的约定.

18.12.09 00:00:01

今天起...
每天都会倒数我跟你所谓"在一起"的时间.
每天都会珍惜你有在我身边的时间.
每天都会记得叫你路上小心,记得吃东西等等.
唯有剩下的时间,让我们珍惜彼此.
不在乎天长地久,只在乎曾经拥有.
不管到最后你的决定是怎样,我只想要你开心.
我只想要你到最后记得我曾经爱过你.
只要你记得这世界上还有一个用真心爱你的人.
那就好.= )
乐观看待事情,乐观看待生活.
我就只要求开心.不要求永远了...
因为永远不存在.永远只是骗人的一句词.
时间一秒一分一时地走...
害怕吗?我承认.我害怕.
不再怕孤独,不再怕失望.
因为我要开心地跟你一起度过这开心的时间.
仅仅的52天,我要过得很充实!
小姐小姐...可以让我爱你吗?=))

concerns. doubts. POSITIVE THINKING RULES!

some asked me,why don't make it public?

i said... because we're taking exams.

some asked me,why don't she admit?

i said... because something happened just few months back and wasn't quite the right time

some asked me,are you sure?

i said... i dont know...

then another one asked me, what's gonna happen next?

i said... i could only just do what i should be doing and don't think about it yet

and in the end, i answered...

if she really wants to play on me, just let it be

if she really wants to hurt me, just let it be

if she feels happy that way, just let it be

i could only know at least i'm still alive

though i cross my fingers tight and believe that she will be the one

there are still part of me that doubts what i have this day

but i am just gona enjoy who i have and what i'm doing right now.

i wouldn't dare to question if she's serious or not.

because i trust her, i don't really want to make myself disappointed

even if the truth is she will disappoint me in the end

i'd just take it and leave it.

because i know, it is not the end of my life with a failed connection

because i know, time is needed to find the right one.

no matter what happens in 2 months from now, i can only pray that everybody will be happy in the end of this chapter of my life.

the starting of a new chapter, the starting of a whole new life, with or without her, i'm gona be the best of who i am. = )

(positive thinking ruleS!)

sometimes, when i look back to the past, how stupid i felt for giving it all in for something that wasn't true enough. but i'm still glad i walked passed the darkest moments in my life. even though it took me quite a long time, i'm glad that i've met you.

not hoping that we would stick together forever, but i just have to tell you, i'm happy being with you. all the others that matters, let's just love each other for as long as we can.

P/S: even if one day you will disappoint me, don't blame urself. things cannot be forced. = )

time flies, and we'll meet again. mwahs*

crabbie missie meemeee~~kakakas

updates. photos only. -ju yin's bday- the ship- batu feringghi night market-

挣扎.深呼吸.

是他们把我们带大.
是他们把我们抚养成今天.
我知道当你们知道真正的我时有多失望.
你们那时也没有说你们要我怎样.
只说要我读好书来.以后的事慢慢谈.
我想,我要的考试后的日子,不懂你们会不会允许.
我没有做犯法的事情.我没有抽烟,我没有吸毒.
我只是做回了我自己.明年就要19岁了.
好想跟朋友们一起出去玩玩.
为什么我姐可以去香港,可以去北京,可以整天跟朋友到处去.
而我,就得在家?
是否因为他们要把我改变成他们想要的女儿?
是否因为他们不想要有多一个女儿?
是否因为我成绩不能比姐姐好,脑子没有像姐姐那么好
是否因为我想做真正的自己,他们觉得很荒谬,他们不肯接受?
是否要永远把我绑在他们身边?是否要等到我疯了你们才肯放手?

刚才跟妈咪去付钱买香水时,我说,我欠她的钱,很快就要变三千块了.
然后她就问到三千了没有,我说还没有.还有大概三四百..
然后我就说,到时要拿钱时叫她给我cash,给我去跟朋友旅行.
她就问,去哪里?跟谁去?什么朋友?你知道我跟你爸爸很担心你的朋友的吗?
你们去kl住哪里?谁带你们去?怎么去?问你爸爸.我没有意见
没有意见又问那么多?
没有意见又说道那么一大堆.
有时我很向往考完试后的生活.
我想,去office做工.我想,开online business.我想,赚比较多钱给自己去旅行,买自己想要的东西
但是因为之前发生的事..让你们对我没有信心.
很多人都认为说我如果真的肯努力,我一定会达到我想要的梦想.
而我的梦想,就是做回自己的同时,你们成全我.
给了你们善意的谎言,我真的觉得很内疚.
而这种内疚,不懂会持续多久.
但我很肯定的是,都走了那么久了...你说要变,就能变?
当我问你们时,你们只对我说,你要的话,一定可以的.
问题是,我根本不想要变.因为我虚假不了一辈子.真的很抱歉.
...当我听到你说你没有意见的这些话时..让我觉得..真的好困难哦..
真的让我很难呼吸.很难笑起来.
当时买了tripod和香水.想笑,但却露不出一丝的笑容.
整个人觉得好被约束.
妈咪说,问爸爸.但她却多加一句,"我跟你爸爸都很怕你的朋友的...不懂什么人来的.."
做到我真的好低落...
下午时,从gym回来就去冲凉了...
偷哭了一下...感觉好压力...感觉好辛苦...
却找不到人听我诉苦...
想告诉家人.却怕把事情弄得更大.很讨厌被念,很讨厌被本地大学的这个字影响.
昨天下午时,就到了阿嫲家找表弟表妹.刚好去到时他们都在睡觉,就只有阿姨没有睡...
这个三姨,对我们都很好,都会试着去了解我们年轻一辈的...
当她问我,要读什么时,我说要读business之类的东西..
她就建议我拿private uni才有的degree in commerce.
我告诉她,我也想过.只是我父母...
她就说,拿loan,住她家,用她的车,但要载我表弟他们上课罢了.哈哈..
我也想这样...
只是...问题不在于我身上...
最近功课超多的...所以..当找不到答案时,一定会发牢骚,发脾气,很想哭的...
因为那种面临考试...大考试的压力...真的不简单..
以前考spm都不会怎样...但是这次...
真的是人命关天啊...
当然,我考不好的话,我自己会安排出路的...
只是不想辜负他们对我的期望,我一定要做到最好...
我的愿望,我要的A...2A 2B-
这样就够了...PA and ekonomi...我比较有信心...拿A
剩下的...我会尽量在paper2里下功夫...
我只想要一个属于我自己的家...属于我和你的家.
本来昨天没有事情的,所以就没告诉你了...
但是今天我真的很想爆发...却像迷你火山爆发罢了...
如果考完试,他们还要绑到我死死...
很抱歉,我一定会爆发了...
如果你们说担心我的安全不给我去kl,it's okay.
but if 你们说我哪里都不可以去,就只可以放工回来呆在家...
i'm so sorry, i will have to break your heart.
It's my life. not yours.
It's my future. not yours.
You brought me up to give me the guidelines towards life.
Thank you. But I have my own perspective towards life.
I just want a simple life, with someone I cherish and not live the life you want me to.
Because if I do, it would be your second life, not my personal life.
You gave me things you could give. I do cherish it.
But please let me be what I want to be and who I want to be.
Please just leave me alone as long as I have taken my Degree.
I'd still care if you don't push me.
I'd still come back to visit you if I go away from this tiny little island.
If I fail, it will be my problem. I know you and dad will be there for me.
But I will only learn my lesson if you let me walk myself, run around, and fall down.
Please, for once, try to understand what I want...
Even though you both will not be reading this,
And when you do, i know you'll be scolding me again and again and again
I'm so tired of you all controlling my life.
Please let me be with who I want and what I want to do.
Please...

深呼吸
未来要走的不平坦的路还很远
不管有没有爱人在我身边
我觉得,我必须鼓起勇气面对这些未来的事情
我要努力
我要做出成绩
我一定要成功
失败的话,我不会气馁
至少我知道我正在过我想要的生活
狗,也会不听话,
人,不是狗,
我们根本不需要听话
只需要听自己心里的话!

<3 random.

*hearts*
It's nice having you. It's nice knowing you.
It's nice loving you. You're in my heart now. = )
Honesty is a must for us to work.
Trust is needed as we both have a distance.
As long as there is the will power to succeed,
Our hearts will be with each other for a long long time.
Still waiting for the day(u know i know) to come,
Though we both know it will be soon before long. *-) winks**
Thank you for coming into my life babe.

I think I'm in love with you. = )

Alright, back to main stuff.
Haven't been blogging for a longggggggggggggggggggg time i know.
hehes. After trials, went down to KL and met you. And took lotsa pics in KL
Just couldn't have the chance to resize it and post it up here.
But pictures are however posted on facebook already.

I've got plans, plans which I wana do after I finish my exams.
Plans that I'm gona make sure I do it.
KL trip, redang trip, genting trip, bei jing trip and perth(still not confirmed) trip.
Gotta earn lotsa money for these trips.
But all on planning already. It's just the matter of time till we finish our exams.
Kakas. Looking forward for the trips down south though.
Penang is filled with people who are terrible. GOshh...
I mean not all Penang people are bad.. but some..
Just so realistic and love to take advantage of STUDENTS one...
><

Trials Overrrrrrr~~~~~

Yupps. Trials over, but this means the actual STPM is around the corner....
=))
Well, holiday starts tomorrow and i'm really looking forward to my trip to kl.
There'll be lots of photos and i shall update it right here and in facebook.
Comments allowed~~ WAIT FOR MY UPCOMING POST~~~