This is a tribute to the lady whom I've just known not long ago. Her name? I call her by..... NV REN! muahahhahaha! *please dun whack me*
It's been almost a month since we know each other. I remembered that day when I first entered the group, we both were talking very close already even though we just happen to talk to each other. Then you asked me if I could add you in msn, I said, ADD ME. blek. And the story goes on with me adding you cos i'm gentleman. LOL. no, not actually. hahaha. You asked me to add you cos you were using your phone to get on msn.
Then, we exchanged numbers and all that. Pictures and all that.
Cut the story short, I fell for you.
And so did you.
But, there were things I need to settle.
It's almost done right now, but I really don't know how to get things into your mind. Yesterday, I let you see my blog. I could feel that you're really sad and not really excited about me anymore after reading it when I asked you today. You just said, I really liked her.
Yeah, I really liked her. But.....
It's over. And I understand if you don't believe me. It's been hard for me since miss J. Flirting around just aint my stuff. I really want to be with you. But, my health issues are bugging me. Please, for once, trust me. I really need your trust right now. You may have a thousand and one admirers out there. But I know who you want.
Maybe after reading my blog, you felt that I still have a thing for the previous one. But actually, I just want you to know that it's not always that we have to be so heartless. (Heartless-Kanye West) There are things that we still need to keep in mind. It's really hard and been a tough journey for me in my love life. I never thought me n her could still be friends. And I'm really happy. You washed me with your anger the other day when I talked about her. I understand. But I wish you could understand how I feel either. I know its not fair. But, I've told you before, she's one of the 2 girls i was together with who still can talk to me. I'm not really proud of it, but its one thing that made me relief.
And yeah, it used to be her in my mind. I'm head over heels over you. I'm not the only one, sad enough. kakkas. but still, I kept in mind that someday you'll go head over heels for me. Muahahhaha. I've been trying to keep a positive mind since miss J. It helped me a lot. And since I met you, every morning was much more livelier. Having to say morning and telling you stupid stuff. It was a pleasure to make you laugh and all that. But sadly, I'm not the only one.
I'm greedy I admit. I'm a very greedy person when it comes to owning stuff and someone. But still I understood that it's never a good thing to own someone all by ourself. It's always good to share. But I hope you'd share your love with me. Cos am gona protect it with my whole hands~ She'll be reading this I know. I know she'd understand that I've moved on and she will eventually. Let's just don't think so much about the future, and start planning about the not-too-distant future okay? But... there's one thing... that may offend you... and you're probably gona tease me till gao gao or maybe be angry over me... *you think you very pretty meh* kakakakkas! till then, going off to pasar malam soon.
psst* i dread for you to fetch me from airport this friday. LOL. but nvm~ i've got a driver to do so if you didn't offer. lol.
bought new shoesssss~~~ nike ace' 83 autoclave. hmMmmm. it's black. = S
