Photographs remember things we forget.

Let's MOVE! 110th post. End of this.

2010-11-28T02:17:00.000-08:00

Allright, it's been a while since my last post. =) *nudge nudge wink wink*

Shall be moving to a new address soon.

http://springfieldshots.blogspot.com

See u guys there.

It'll be based on photography and life experiences throughout....don't know how many years. Hee. But definitely I'll make use of my camera soon.

Till then.

Goodbye to eight-infiniti.

Chew Jetty

2010-06-17T05:04:00.000-07:00

PSST** noticed something? LOL. i noticed this only when I was editing the photo. ==

Tonight tonight, we shall see what uni i'm going into and what course i'm given. Fight till the end for the things I want!
Back from my 2 weeks stay from KL on sunday. Missed you. =P and all the hokkien mee i've ate. and best tour was to genting. 5 years since i went there, and nothing much changed yet! HAHA! except that I tried the space shot!!! challenged myself though. hehe!
anyway, i know i've not been updating this blog. shall see you guys soon in the future?! XD

Previous Dinners. == Didn't know I didn't upload these. From E&O Hotel.

2010-04-20T10:04:00.000-07:00

Im only gona break break break break your heart .

2010-04-20T09:00:00.000-07:00

Happy 20th Birthday Miss Lay. = ) *mwahs*

WheeewiT~~~~ O.O longkang.. deep deep~!

Miss Ng with her........usual pose. LOL!

Side dishes!

Kimchi pancake.

Dolsot Bibimbap!

Kimchi Jjigae, Beef, Pork, Bibimbap!

The two lovely ladies. hmMmm.

Happy Rubbish Family. = ) Though some did not make it. At least most of us came!

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This was on my sister's convocation. At UUM. End of March.

Attending the far right lady's wedding in KL on 3rd May. = ) Guess I'll be seeing my KL friends I guess. If not, try end of may when I'm going to stay there for a few weeks. Hahah!

Now, everybody knows that i have a crush on missy moon. I tried not to make it so public. But there are blog viewers and etc that do some talking behind me. I actually don't mind. So, anyway, felt a *bump* in my heart. I really don't want to explain much here. All I could say is. If this is what its meant to be, just take it. Don't try to change the fact where its already the truth. Because you'll probably end up screwing up the whole damn thing.

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Talked to dee dee about this. She felt pity for me. Well, at least she cheered me up by praising me and putting me on cloud nine. Hahah. She said I'm being very nice and the best thing about me is that I don't put a drama if those thing happened. I'd accept the truth and live on and be friends. I could accept and all that. I'm very glad she said that. Because what happened between me and dee dee are the past. And I must admit that I've tried my best to love everyone who becomes my partner. Except for those ungrateful ones. I must admit that I do feel sad and disappointed. But I'm glad that she did the right thing. Thank you missy moon. = ) I'll always be at your side if you ever need me. Well, in fact, I've decided to put a halt onto my love life. Shocking? Not really. LOL. Would just want to rest a while, give myself some time to focus on something more realistic.

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Yesterday was one of my form 6 friends' birthday. Went to Korea Palace for dinner. Scrumptious meal for only rm170++ for 5 people. After that, headed to ZenZibar for Dean Dean's birthday. Promised her I would show up. So, went with josephine and ju yin and stop by for a drink. Had couple cups of beer. And josephine was quite beh syok that wherever or whichever bar we go, the LADY bar attendants always pour drinks for me and not for her. Well, too bad, I'm more sexy I guess. Hahah!! Then Dean's cousin, Sheila kept pushing me to drink. And in the end, my stomach was filled with kimchi and beer. Its a NO-NO situation as you may puke! Was feeling a bit dizzy and floating cause of fast beer drinking. Had negative thoughts in mind as well. Don't know what I was thinking, doing or talking. == . What a dangerous situation for me. Then.... said something I shouldn't be saying to missy moon. I was quite O.O when I saw her reply. == . It really made me confused one more time for that day itself. A confusing day. HmMmmm.... And in the end, I doze off very quickly. And I couldn't recall what I said the next morning right after I woke up and finally thought of what I said earlier during mid-day. == Consequences of drinking beer fast!

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I finally took the initiative to blog and post pictures. Not a bad start eh? All functionable after 11.59pm. LOL!

有些人假装很坚强，其实很爱你。。

2010-04-10T09:22:00.000-07:00

有一些人

。貌似很花心、其实很专一

。貌似很坚强、其实比谁都要脆弱

。貌似很开心、可是笑容背后的哀伤谁又能懂...

。其实很多时候

。这一类人都是在自我折磨

。明明很爱很爱对方

。却宁愿心痛的死掉

。也选择任眼泪随意放肆...

。其实很多时候

。这一类人很好懂

。他们很害怕孤单

。因为一个人的时候

。他们会胡思乱想

。他们会想起那个没有结局的故事

。会想起那个模糊却又清晰的脸庞

。因为一个人的时候

。他们会觉得很没安全感

。他们的要求总是那么的低

。只要爱着的那个人陪着他们就好...

。其实很多时候

。这一类人都很敏感

。都很容易猜疑

。一个眼神、一个动作

。都会让他们神经兮兮一整天

。所以不要让他们恐慌

。不要让他们伤心

。其实很多时候

。这一类人都在感伤

。不是他们多愁善感

。只是容易触景生情罢了

。他们喜欢用文字来刻写他们的心情

。这也是他们的一种寄托方式...

。其实很多时候

。这一类人都处在矛盾之中

。是继续还是暂停？

。是放弃还是坚持？

。看似感性的他们

。却往往于最后...

。总是让理性驾驭整个思维...

。其实很多时候

。这一类人总是活在过去

。他们总是不经意地在现在的生活中找一些似曾相识的感觉

。虽然他们自我约定要忘记过去

。可是他们忘了...

。过去早以在脑海根深蒂固...

。其实很多时候

。这一类人害怕看见别人的甜蜜

。不是嫉妒

。只是会觉得和以前的自己好像

。然后会陷入整个回忆

。待过往的疼痛唤醒自己的意识

。再一个人慢慢舔舐自己的伤口...

。其实很多时候

。这一类人都很执著

。有时候不明白他们在坚持着什么

。他们是在期待那个没有结局的故事的结局还是在等待更大

的伤害

。他们就是傻

。这一类人

。脾气太臭、不仅任性、而且敏感多疑

。所以请用真心对待他们

。因为他们的心脆得很

。伤不起……

I was this stupid. I am this stupid. So fuck off if you have a problem with it!

Oh gosh. Empty.

2010-04-01T00:17:00.000-07:00

My oh my, I'm feeling numb again.
No, not because i've been sitting too long or sleeping too long.
But everything is so sudden, I don't know if it's pain or it's joy.
In my previous post I mentioned somebody.
That somebody whom I really thought would be someone whom I can start a new chapter. But something happened just hours after I wrote the blog about her. It came to a question and a doubt my friends asked me. I know they were trying to remind me of my previous mistakes and all that. I just never thought it could be stuck on my mind. She asked me what they asked, I honestly told her. And I told her I was thinking too. I didn't want to hide from her. But, it was something to be discussed over someday. It was a matter of trust. I really blame myself for making her pissed off with me. She definitely had the rights to be pissed off at me and disappointed at me. All I wanted was to NOT lie to her and say I'm okay and keeping all the stuff to myself. Before J, I had a terrible encounter which made me totally frightened and I don't know what happened. I am protecting myself too much. I wanted to love *miss somebody* with all my heart and start a new relationship. It really shattered my heart when she said she was going to leave. I didn't want her to leave. Although it is a decision I truly hate, but I just wanted her to be happy and I wanted her to be mine only. I never said I was not greedy. I want her to be truly to me only. I never asked, she never thought, I said things to her I mean, but I screwed it up altogether.
It's my 4th time. And it fucking hurts my self confidence.
Sorry is not the best word to make her stay. I asked her not to leave. She said she didn't want to think. I'm sorry for making her think this way and be confused and upset. Things weren't really well with me. It really made me vomit. Determined to fight for a chance to get her for myself, I asked her to reconsider somehow.
I've thought about this while I was waiting for something to be done. I found out that, what I really want is someone who could commit herself only to me. No, I'm not saying that she can't. But in a short period of time, we can't be together. She has her concerns. I was about to tell her that, C is now with another one. And I really felt happy for her. I need to say I'm not feeling anything. Because with the joy for her having another one, and the tears for letting *miss somebody* go, I really felt empty. All over again, it was empty. What I wanted to tell *miss somebody*, couldn't be reached anymore unless she just accidentally bumps into my blog. I want commitments from her. But its not going to be easy for her to figure out who she prefers. It's been a while since I wanted someone to fill my life. But, I guess I'd just have to stick to myself. = ( I miss *miss somebody*.
Oh well, shut the fuck up and rest.

Was a bit bit........

2010-03-31T04:02:00.001-07:00

This is a tribute to the lady whom I've just known not long ago. Her name? I call her by..... NV REN! muahahhahaha! *please dun whack me*

It's been almost a month since we know each other. I remembered that day when I first entered the group, we both were talking very close already even though we just happen to talk to each other. Then you asked me if I could add you in msn, I said, ADD ME. blek. And the story goes on with me adding you cos i'm gentleman. LOL. no, not actually. hahaha. You asked me to add you cos you were using your phone to get on msn.

Then, we exchanged numbers and all that. Pictures and all that.

Cut the story short, I fell for you.

And so did you.

But, there were things I need to settle.

It's almost done right now, but I really don't know how to get things into your mind. Yesterday, I let you see my blog. I could feel that you're really sad and not really excited about me anymore after reading it when I asked you today. You just said, I really liked her.

Yeah, I really liked her. But.....

It's over. And I understand if you don't believe me. It's been hard for me since miss J. Flirting around just aint my stuff. I really want to be with you. But, my health issues are bugging me. Please, for once, trust me. I really need your trust right now. You may have a thousand and one admirers out there. But I know who you want.

Maybe after reading my blog, you felt that I still have a thing for the previous one. But actually, I just want you to know that it's not always that we have to be so heartless. (Heartless-Kanye West) There are things that we still need to keep in mind. It's really hard and been a tough journey for me in my love life. I never thought me n her could still be friends. And I'm really happy. You washed me with your anger the other day when I talked about her. I understand. But I wish you could understand how I feel either. I know its not fair. But, I've told you before, she's one of the 2 girls i was together with who still can talk to me. I'm not really proud of it, but its one thing that made me relief.

And yeah, it used to be her in my mind. I'm head over heels over you. I'm not the only one, sad enough. kakkas. but still, I kept in mind that someday you'll go head over heels for me. Muahahhaha. I've been trying to keep a positive mind since miss J. It helped me a lot. And since I met you, every morning was much more livelier. Having to say morning and telling you stupid stuff. It was a pleasure to make you laugh and all that. But sadly, I'm not the only one.

I'm greedy I admit. I'm a very greedy person when it comes to owning stuff and someone. But still I understood that it's never a good thing to own someone all by ourself. It's always good to share. But I hope you'd share your love with me. Cos am gona protect it with my whole hands~ She'll be reading this I know. I know she'd understand that I've moved on and she will eventually. Let's just don't think so much about the future, and start planning about the not-too-distant future okay? But... there's one thing... that may offend you... and you're probably gona tease me till gao gao or maybe be angry over me... *you think you very pretty meh* kakakakkas! till then, going off to pasar malam soon.

psst* i dread for you to fetch me from airport this friday. LOL. but nvm~ i've got a driver to do so if you didn't offer. lol.

bought new shoesssss~~~ nike ace' 83 autoclave. hmMmmm. it's black. = S

Blogging. in UUM. My not-so-desired place.

2010-03-27T17:45:00.000-07:00

Currently I'm stuck in UUM. Had to come here for my sister's convocation.

But got my mood struck by the oh-so-mighty poisonous mother for sayin i got no brains at 5.40am? Will you be pissed if you were me?

Thinking that it'll only be a few more months before i leave. Just SABAR~

Anyway, KL trip next week. I've been looking forward to that day since last month when I got my results. Was pretty stressed out whenever the oh-so-mighty poisonous mother came asked and questioned about my studies. I told her I'd do my share and bla bla bla.

But seriously, I don't want to study something I never want to excel in. A.K.A degree in tourism management. The reason I chose it because my sister's friend could try to pull string and get me a place. But seriously, tourism is my 2nd choice after business. I don't really want to enter public university actually. I guess there's no choice for me unless I satisfy and prove to them that with my low CGPA i can't get into uni neither do i get to study for the courses i want to. I'm counting on my uncle to help me to get into UKM actually. But all of them could only do their best to help me. I've been really stressed out with my mom. Always trying to push me into public uni. I mean its okay if I get to any uni at all with the course i want. But....... it's not the case for me. I just wish they could understand me more and try to communicate with me. What's more. I plan to get into MMU after all. I don't really want to waste my time studying shit courses offered. Anyway, just something I could blog about today. It's so freaking boring here. Thank god they give access to facebook.

a post which would have been earlier...

2010-03-22T05:29:00.000-07:00

Before my recent haircut. aka on my burpdae itself.

After hair cut~

Celebrated my burpdae at Tao. All my nun gang people were there. Except for denise and wenlin. But its okay. It was fun. Thanks girls for the dinner! hehe. Had a drinking session at Bed, which is just next door. Waiting for pics from miss toot0808! lol.

Some random pictures from my previous photoshoots.

awesomeness tak terhingga~~ah ma's sharks fin and abalone soup before having steamboat!

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我和你的事情已经到了一个段落了.
晚上,有时我还蛮想打给你聊天的.
却不懂你是否会再接.也不想再跟你吵架了.
能做朋友那概多好.只可惜,我们只是冷冷的几句短短的话.
看到你的部落格,有男生向你表白了哦.不错.为你开心.
虽然是荒谬了点,但是,至少你开始慢慢相信别人.
到现在,我根本不懂我们为什么会分开.
是我幼稚吗?是我经不起考验吗?还是是我跟你...根本没有缘分?
我觉得,既然有机会在一起过,已经很好了.
希望你会勇往直前,把以前发生在你身上的事情忘了.
真心的祝福你...
也祝福自己...
今天的post早就应该post上来了...
下一个会更好.现在我有另一个喜欢的人了...
一定会更适合我...但我没有追她...我只向她坦白...
她也说了...但是我们并没有在一起...
原因,我累了,她也想休息了.
我在想,如果当初我不是去找你,也许我们现在还是很好的朋友.
我改了,我长大了,但是我累了...真的好累啊...

5 more days to my Burpdae'''

2010-03-11T05:49:00.000-08:00

It's been a while.

-How's life going on? *

So so.

-What's new?

Nothing new. Just a random post since i got nothing to do.

-Anything hot?

Yes. But no beginning and no ending is the best.

-Am I still waiting?

No. Cleared each other's thoughts.

-Still friends?

Yes.

-She cares?

I CARE. but cold response.

-Did i find someone better?

Yes. But don't seem to be making any progress. And I highly doubt it'd be good.

-Is she someone I want?

Perhaps. Not sure. Still in the process.

-Still committed to babe lin?

Don't know whether should I be. Being too realistic and care too much about money.

-Will she understand how I think of her?

No. Because she ain't listening to her ownself either.

-How is she doing today?

I have no idea. My messages are full with other ppl rather than hers since i got my new handphone.

-Does it hurt?

Yes. But i'm cool with it. The stinging pain of coldness is always there.

Last Question : Do I still love her?

Yes. But as a friend whom I care.

-End of Story-

Burpday's next week. Going to Tao with Nun people. Hopefully they don't buy me a cake. Cos we'll gona be stuffed with food before eating the cake. No point also. KAKKAKAS.

I want pressiessssssssssssssssssss~~~~

Actually I wasn't looking forward for you guys to remember my birthday and offered to celebrate with me. It was a bit shocking though. But thanks guys for willing to celebrate with me. You know who I want to celebrate it with. But I think enough is enough. I don't want to cry this birthday. Thanks.

100th post

2010-01-19T04:57:00.000-08:00

My heart seriously aches right now. = (
End of blogging my personal life.
= ( = ( = ( = (

Day out.

2010-01-18T07:27:00.000-08:00

An unforgettable chapter in my life.

2010-01-17T07:56:00.000-08:00

It's the 98th post.

Starting work soon. Just enough for me to keep myself busy and packed with workload. So that i don't feel the pain that's in my heart right now. Every moment, I thought of texting her, asking her how she's doing and all that. But I held back this time. It was hard for me not to look at my phone today. Hoping that she'd find and look for me whenever she's bored. Tried so hard not to think about her. It was a memorable love story. It's now over and we lost to something called our inner self. I had never held her hand and pak-tor with her before. Nevertheless, I had never even hugged her before. Why is it a love so pain? It's because I actually thought that we'll be happier after this half a year. When I get into university, and her, working or even taking up a course. Just doing something she might be into. Going down to see her whenever I have the free time. And all sorts of things that could make her in my company. Why am I in so much pain right now? Because I actually lost my way after losing her. Where am I standing? What have I built? I have dreams... Yes... I do have my dreams... Nothing will stop me from going on... I actually have no problem coping with everything else with myself... But when it comes to love... I'm just a loser.

Not being negative or what, but to think of it, my weakness is the game of love. I'm so tired... So fucking tired... Why don't I deserve something I love... Why don't I deserve having somebody around my arms and love them the way I want to... All my previous partners were such a pain... Am i being stupid for being held by them? Being manipulated by everybody in my life... I need to make a stand... I'll just be manipulated for another half a year... Nothing seems to cheer me up really... Just wana keep myself busy and busy and busy...

Until the 100th post... Then i'm making things change... Keeping my personal feelings all inside again... Just like how I used to be before I met her... Mysterious... Stress-free from the outside... Struggling on the inside... Just wishing she'll be happier the way she wants to... She may think I'm trying to be a wise person or what... But she doesn't know what's going on inside me... Just wanna try to be there for her... Its not worth it she might think... But I'm not going to be repeating my mistake again... Not like the previous one anymore...

Body's aching, heart's in pain. This pain will be even worse later on...

No matter how long I still have, I just wish I have the chance to experience being loved by my friends and family. Love no more. It'll be my deepest regrets of all time. I'm tired. I'm sorry. I just wanna cry it all out as I've been holding back my tears for some time... But I couldn't cry anymore...

The rest is the past.

2010-01-16T21:43:00.000-08:00

There was this thing called love I never understood. I used to think of it as a bond between two people in love, where nothing else matters. And that love was the only things I'm always worried about. To be happy, to feel loved by someone I care. I used to as I said. Now, it's a new meaning to me after all. There was this love story which happened to me. In just a vast 4 months, how things have developed and changed.
Got to know her from a chat group in MSN. Exchanged numbers, and hence, I thought everything was going well with me and another friend. Things changed when I become more emotionally attached to her, telling her all my problems, and her, needing my support and comfort. Went to met her during mid Sept holidays. Boy, it was just a shrud against the shoulders, and a pat on her shoulder. I felt something I've been afraid of. Just so that I could make a new friend, and stay as a friend who she can talk to. I might not be a big help, but at least if she gets her mouth starts talking, she'll be more relaxed than usual given that the life of her's is filled with fear and tension. Then, something happened in the meantime, an incident she thought it was over. As I started to have feelings for her, all I just want to do was to protect her and let her know that there's nothing to be afraid of. Giving her moral support wasn't enough. It's the vendetta in her heart that needs to be vanished. No matter how hard I tried to console her, she just kept it inside her. Being a strong lady, she took it all into her heart. I thought I was doing good until what I've been told again. I got stuck on her during her hard times, and I just wanted to care for her even more. Greed made me commit on a relationship with her. We loved each other, may I say, but there were dark corners around her which I couldn't counter at all. Meanwhile, I'm having health issues that could rip my life.
Soon, her birthday came. Being unable to celebrate with her. I posted her birthday presents for her. Would love to hand things to you personally, but we know it'd be impossible as both of our examinations are in the corner. Things went pretty well, but during the exam period, we argued over pressure and stuff. Being my soft-hearted self, I cried a lot during that period. The pressure from my family was too intense, and I've been a bad person to her. Somebody tried to rip me off her, right now, that ass should be pretty happy instead. At least she chose to tell me the truth. Things were going up and down, until she procrastinated the way I am. According to her, I'm being someone who doesn't have my own opinion. But indeed, I just wanted to stop us from arguing. There was no more chance for me. It's January now, all these happened in the month of December 2009. Remember 2008? Surely I did. And for the same period of time, I had to go through all these over and over again. It hurts. It really hurts. There was no one to turn to, so I couldn't hide my feelings from her and told her I couldn't let her go yet. On Christmas Day itself, I gave her christmas presents. Teddybears. The fluffy toy she loved and a laconic necklace. I don't know whether now if she's thrown it away or kept it inside the box. All I could sense is that she needs a friend who can always be there for her. I told her I'm willing to help her. But the way she thinks is kept in herself and not letting anybody persuade her to do things. On Boxing Day morning, I received a text bomb. Stunned like I wrote in my previous post. It took me a long way to be emotionally ready for the next stage of my life from what happened in the past year. She was busy and busy, but she said she'll be with me to overcome all these issues. But in the end, I'm still alone. I couldn't ask more right now. Since things were not the way it was supposed to be anymore. I've learned my lesson. And I shall not reveal my feelings to anyone anytime soon. Or should I say, I'm tired of these fucking love life I have. Nothing seemed real and clear to me anymore. Not even my future. I just know, I'm the one who controls my life. And for my birthday present, she asked me what I want the most. I told her what I want is unaccomplishable. She kept quiet. And I think it'll be better this way. Friends have been asking what I wanna do on my Birthday already. I think, I just want a simple celebration. Wanted to go down to be with her. I don't think I should be doing that anymore. Even if there is still feelings I have for her, it'll never be revealed. She knows I'm in love with her. If a friend is what she needs, I'll say Yes to her requests as long as I can do it. It's CNY in less than a month. How I wish to take her around if she ever comes around. But it's all her choice. Treating me and that ass like a friend. Or maybe she won't even choose both of us! It's the fairest way she'll think.
The rest is the past. Live on as long as I'm alive.
I think I'll be happier this way and appreciate what I have.
As long as she remembers me as a friend, I'm happy and proud to be one.
She's a nice lady, just that she got issues with her heart.
Hopefully one day she'll grow up and be more open minded. Nevertheless, she's still so young and naive over some things.
It was a love that was painful, but I never regret loving her as much as I could. Fate ends between me and her. What can I do when there's nothing to do? It'll be only be up to time and fate to decide. Taking prescription drugs right now. I wish I had nothing to do with it. Cos i'm really afraid of being sick!

2nd post of the day

2010-01-04T01:47:00.000-08:00

2nd post of the day.

Sighs. Really am heartbroken.

Why? I really really like you. And Why did I say those things to u?

95th Post.

2010-01-03T20:58:00.001-08:00

Well, here's a brand new year, that also means a brand new life.

The starting of a new chapter after the end.

For the last 2 weeks of 2009, i was in KL to celebrate christmas and new year.

Both celebrations are held in my aunt's house, which is however, big enough to hold such a big party.

Anyway, I went to see you on Christmas Day itself. Bought you 2 teddy bears. And I gave you 3 presents that day. 3rd present was actually myself. LOL. Things was quite bored for me in KL however. Cos you're busy working and didn't have the time for me. And so, yeah, I was unhappy for a while. But was even unhappy when you dropped a bomb on me. And again, yeah, I felt even worse. Didn't quite understand why you did that to me. But I've said before, as long as you're happy with your decision, I'll definitely respect your decision. Was having fumes all over my head on Sunday, that was 2 days after the bomb. Had fever and started to go crazy. Went to Redbox after lunch and all that. Screamed the whole way. But was tamed down again by you. I've never expect that you had so much influence on me. Oh well, lousy me, always get soft-hearted by ladies. sighs* You said you wanted me to treat you like how I used to and even better. Thinking that I like you, so why not? Who knows when will you find a better person than me right? And who knows I will meet someone better right? So as long as I still have feelings for you, I wouldn't mind doing this for you. You've gave me upside down turns, confused over what I am to you. But in the end, I'm pretty clear that I'm just trying to woo you back to me again. When I'm sick and tired, I'll be gone, soon before you find out. Just to see you happy, makes me happy enough to stay by your side even though I know it's unrealistic. I've made stupid mistakes before. And never want to make it happened twice! So well, more updates and pictures on my 96th post then. Till then.

2010,a perfect year. for me to do what I really want.

It was only half a year till i get my freedom, perhaps you just wana fly before learn how to walk?

2 days before leaving penang for a much long awaited escape!

2009-12-18T22:37:00.000-08:00

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

escaping to the city~~~~~

<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

in 2 days time, and exactly around 43 hours

= ))))

jeng jeng jeng jeng~

bringing lappie, dslr, digital cam, mp3, and vodka!

muahahhahaha! bringing oni one week's clothes

i get to wash em! muahahhaha!

excited. finally getting out of here.

finally leaving this miserable place.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~~

Gonna take shit loads of photos there.

shall be uploading to fb every now and then

see you guys next year~! = ))

= ?

2009-12-15T21:04:00.000-08:00

???????

Don't know why I ain't happy.

Don't know why I ain't sad.

Don't know what I am feeling.

Perhaps this is the ending of a story, beginning of a new chapter...

Is this how I should feel?

Life's gotta move on, I'll move on.

On monday, I shall leave Penang.

To somewhere not many people knows who I am

What's more, what are friends for when they don't even have you in sight?

Life's a brief candle.

Behold its magnificence.

Something great will happen to me.

I'm positive.

But now, I shall just calm myself down before the new chapter of my life begins

Portraits photoshooting? Hmmm... nobody wants and nobody has the time

Perhaps I shall try composition and scenery this time

Bye bye Penang.

U miserable island!

Photos. Food. Birthday.

2009-12-07T22:54:00.000-08:00

Mayhem~~~

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Other dinners...

Happy Birthday Splendy~!

Tribute for you. but with added photos from my previous dinners!

I'm Sorry. I can't be PERFECT.

2009-12-02T19:08:00.000-08:00

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。
——纯纯的“对不起” 。

男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。
男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。

—— “对不起”的快乐 。

大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。
那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。

—— “对不起”也是一种承诺。

婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。
慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”

—— “对不起”，谎言的开始。

渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。

—— “对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。

女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。
那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……
许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。

—— 这样的“对不起”太伤人。

男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。
快递为男孩送来一个盒子。
男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。

“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。
离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。
对不起，我想我是真的累了。”

男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。
女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。

—— 原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。

那一年，男孩疯了。

每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，那对谁，都不好……把这个故事传下去，让你的朋友们知道，不要随意地说出对不起......

Money money money~~woes

2009-12-02T19:02:00.001-08:00

Money

錢

↓

It can buy a House
可以用來買房子　

But not a Home
但是不能買一個家　

　

　It can buy a Bed
　可以用來買床　

But not Sleep
但是不能買睡眠

It can buy a Clock
可以用來買時鐘　

　But not Time
但是不能買時間

　
　It can buy you a Book
　可以用來買書　

But not Knowledge
但是不能買到知識

It can buy you a Position

可以用來買職位　

But not Respect
但是不能買到尊敬

It can buy you Medicine
可以用來買藥　

　But not Health
但是不能買到健康

It can buy you Blood
可以用來買血

But not Life
但是不能買回生命　

It can buy you Sex

可以用來買性行為　

But not Love
　但是不能買到真愛

　

So you see money isn't everything.
所以金錢不是萬能的　

I tell you all this because I am your Friend,
我之所以告訴你這些道理,是因為我是你真正的朋友

　

and as your Friend I want to take away your pain and suffering.....
而身為你的朋友,我想要消除你的痛苦
免除你所受的折磨

　 so send me all your money and I will suffer for you
所以把你的錢都　
寄來吧!　

我決定替你承受
這一切痛苦......　

　

　A true Friend than me you will never find.
你再也不會找到任何一個比我更真心的朋友了

　

CASH ONLY PLEASE

我只收現金，謝謝!

I just want to love you.

2009-12-01T20:20:00.000-08:00

Flashbacks of what has happened in the past

Reminds me of what I've been through

still standing here.

i falled. but i managed to stand up.

right now....

an hour and a half to my macro paper

breathe easy......

it'll be better tomorrow...

wo xian zai zhen de hen bu kai xin

but what can i do?

let it flow like water

wishing one day, u'll smile happily from ur heart to ur loved one

i really wish you would really be happy for urself!

what you told me, really gave me a punch to my heart

I want to be the one

I want to love you

I want to be there for you

It's been a pretty amazing 70 days we've been together

I'm happy to have you.

But I'm not happy, because you're not happy.

I wish one day you'll realise

That all of those things aren't a big deal because I'm right here standing by you.

And hopefully, I have the chance to see you smile straight from your heart!

=')

Does it really matter to me?

2009-12-01T03:40:00.000-08:00

Questions I've been askin myself...

Why am I feeling this way?

Why is it that I couldn't make you happy?

Why is it that sometimes I feel very down?

Why....

Today, you asked me whether I'd hate it if you were friends with tb's

I said not really. But in the case that person fancies you...

YES

You've been quite busy these few days...

I couldn't blame you for being busy... DUH*

But somehow... I just feel that you're not yourself nowadays...

I don't know why

Maybe i'm being sensitive or what...

I just feel very down lately

Maybe it's because what you've told me...

And what I saw in facebook...

Perhaps it's just an act of coincidence...

I text-ed you and said..

Don't tell anyone you've got me...

I lied..

I wanted everyone to know you've got me...

But all the actions you made...

Don't seem to make any sense that you really am happy to have me...

I don't know why it's hard for me to believe that someone really loves me

But I just know I really fell in love with you

What bothers me isn't those problems that couldn't be solved

We have a distance, i don't know what I should be doing to make you happy

As it seems that whatever I say...

You just won't laugh that much...

Maybe like you said...

You don't feel like talking...

Sighs...

I wana cry, but i can't cry out

I wana talk to you, but you don't feel like talking

I wana drink, but I've got a paper tmrw

I wana give up, but I can't do so... Not until you've found the one

Remember the promise i made to you?

Saying that i'll let go after exam finishes?

But in the end you said you wanted 520 days and going...

I was so happy and wanted to announce our relationship

But sadly... before it is even 100 days...

There is no more sign of it in your profile...

Perhaps, you just wana be mysterious...

I hope you're reading this...

Because I don't know what else could I do to tell you what I feel

Until you've found the one for you, I'll not give up.

*T.T*

I wana hold on to something to cry and let my sadness go away.

Having so many friends around me...

Which of you all are really there for me when I need you all?

Independent is a must to survive.

Shall wrap around myself and hide in my bed for a night.

Good night people.

The silence of the night is terrifying me.

I won't be able to speak to you tonight.

As the silence horrifies me. And your lips remained shut.

I wish you were happy with me.

I wish you are happy with me.

I wish you good luck in your paper tmrw.

I wish you will always remember these days when I'm gone.

= (

( =

its just the opposite anyway. who cares?!

Give up.

2009-11-22T21:22:00.000-08:00

I give up. I surrender. From this stupid thing.
Yeah, she's right.
Yeah, i'm being too nosy.
Yeah, i'm the leader of this whole thing.
I fucking give up.
I see nothing
I hear nothing
I sense nothing
I don't know anything

White Flag. YUUHOOO. WHITE FLAG D!
Fucking miss J, happy now?
YOU MAY ENJOY DOING WHAT YOU FEEL HAPPY DOING!
COS I DUN FUCKING CARE ANYMORE!
I FUCKING DONT CARE!

Visvim Christo CLOT Royale!

2009-11-20T18:11:00.000-08:00

Visvim Christo CLOT Royale!!!!!

GRRRRR.....***drool***

I want!!!!!

The highly anticipated CLOT Royale x Visvim Christo has long been the source of much speculation regarding its release with an end in sight. For CLOT Royale, the use of Visvim’s sandal model the Christo was an obvious choice as it represented a popular item among the Asian market and suited the warm Asian climate. Keeping in line with CLOT Royale’s trademark use of silk, a handful of colors are set to release as CLOT aims to offer a culturally relevant product. To compliment the Visvim dust bag , an exclusive CLOT Royale silk dust bag will also be provided. The inaugural release will feature a yellow colorway on July 4th, exclusively at ACU/Juice with a suggested retail price of $2,680 HKD (approximately $342 USD). Due to the popularity of this release, a lottery system will be instituted with tickets given out at 10:00 am and the subsequent draw taking place at 10:30 am. More details for the other colors will be revealed at a later date.

It's just Love afterall...

2009-11-17T23:13:00.000-08:00

跟你一起,真的好开心
虽然见面的机会不是常有
至少我懂得我还有一个你在远方想着我
但是我觉得我自己真的好差
我时不时就吃了不应该吃的醋
也夺走了你的私隐
也许我不应该讲这一句话
但是我已经说出去了
"也许你根本都不了解我..."
但是这一切不是你的错
是我很难把心中的苦说出来
所受过的伤害,不是我不要把它埋起来
而是无时无刻都有人在提醒着我在爱情里的错误
我答应自己不可以重犯
但却无法相信最爱的人
老实说,我很相信你
但只有一件事我好难说服自己
就是你跟我的其他前任不一样
也许之前的她把我的心弄得太糟糕了
我没有办法把黑白分清.到底什么话是真的
什么话是假的
很抱歉...昨晚忽然攻击你...问你...
影响到了你考试的心情...
而今天早上你也没回复我
所以我大概就知道你是在忙...还是在生我的气
你说你不介意...但是我介意...也很内疚
不过做了,承认了,我也答应了不再那样
原因是我不要你因为我而改变自己

有一天,如果你找不到我
请你勇往直前,不要再回头看我有没有偷偷在你后面跟着你
不,不是因为我要放弃你
而是我不值得你爱
宁愿选择默默爱你
也不想再伤害任何人
你是个很好的人,相信没有我在你身边,你会更幸福.
我就是爱吃比我好的人的醋.
我就是不喜欢我爱的人会犹豫她到底选对了对象吗
犹豫,似乎不应该存在.
爱,就爱.不爱,就放.

今天早上,之前疯迷追她的她来向我告白了
我什么也没有说...
也懂我告诉你的话,你也不理的...
所以我不会告诉你...等你看到我的部落格的时候
想问,就问.不想问,也懂.

Mistakes are done for us to remember what happened in the past.
Should we ever repeat the same mistake?
Maybe sometimes we should.
As it will let all of us live a happier life.
You just have to always remember what the mistake cost you.
What happened in the past cost my precious time of doing things in a better way.
What happened in the past also make me fail to believe in love actually is just a simple thing.
I just failed to believe and trust those who really love me.
But one thing I really did succeed was loving you with all my heart. But just in a wrong way.
What more, it's just Love afterall.
Had so many disappointments this year.
And yet, this time, I let myself down.
Knowing that it's my fault. And I have known it well long before I did it.
I'm sorry darling. I need more time to believe that girls are not always so bad.
It's enough that I've had it with her. I don't want to go through hell again.

Tomorrow's accounts paper, I'm almost prepared. I just need a few fixes on my knowledge and I'll definitely pass it!

GRRR. I despise you.

2009-11-03T23:09:00.000-08:00

You think you're all that

But you ain't nothing but someone close to me

You think you're the best

Cos you're smarter than me

You may excel in academics

But I am pretty sure I'm gonna excel you in the future

You judge me for who I am

You judge me for what I'm doing

You judge me for what you don't know

Before you judge me, please judge yourself

And also THINK whether you have any excuse for yourself

I talked happily at night.

You? Sobbing away and always showing your fucked up face

At least I know I'm happy with someone else

YOU? Please, don't know where you're going after this

Wish you could just get some overseas job and SHOO AWAY!

Having you sitting beside me is like a hell to me

I still can't imagine how loud you type!

It's like thumping on the keyboard and expressing urself in a rude way to your lappie

Oh well, but ITS your lappie. not mine.

I just know I'll be good without you needing to order me!

I am who i am and you are just nothing to me!

Always making yourself feeling so sick

Gosh. Come ON! GO OUT AND LIVE LA!

Why are you staying here?

Even I couldn't stand the pressure being at home

and YOU? still wana find job here???

And you and your psycotic bf, goshh...

Till now I still can't forget how you both ditched me just to date

and what happened

Not because I'm not a forgiving person but just

what you both did was totally unacceptable.

I've forgiven you but that does not make me trust you again

You told me you're going down to KL for xmas

You told me you're a changed person now.

HELL NO! go and take a look at yourself in the mirror and give yourself a few good slaps!

WHO ARE YOU TO BE NAGGING WHAT I DO IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT?!?!??!

AT LEAST I'M NOT SOBBING AWAY EVERY NIGHT!

I HATE YOU! I DESPISE YOU!!!!!!!!!

I despise you who think you're all that and that smart.

But you just don't know what the hell you're losing of in your life.

Even mom said you're stupid for turning down the offer!

STUPIDO!

----一句的对不起

2009-11-02T06:00:00.000-08:00

失望多了,是否每当听到<对不起>这三个字时都很害怕?
不敢想象下一句会是什么...
也许已经好久没人真心的只想为他们所做错的事情而向我道歉...
而不是想要跟我硬撑的缘故而跟我说道歉...
所以让我觉得每当心爱的她,对我说对不起这三个字时都很害怕
没有要怪之前的她把我搞成这样,这也只是代表我已经受够了她的一切
我愿意放开之前的一切,就只想好好的爱她.
之前的她教过我不可以随便对任何人说对不起
但有时我还是说了...
不是因为要给自己理由伤害别人
而只是很诚心的像某人说
但却有人对我说时我会愣了起来...
也许失望太过多次了...
我不懂我该怎么接受...一句简单的"对不起"

矛盾?Yes, i never said i was not!

一个简单的约定.

2009-10-27T06:24:00.000-07:00

18.12.09 00:00:01

今天起...
每天都会倒数我跟你所谓"在一起"的时间.
每天都会珍惜你有在我身边的时间.
每天都会记得叫你路上小心,记得吃东西等等.
唯有剩下的时间,让我们珍惜彼此.
不在乎天长地久,只在乎曾经拥有.
不管到最后你的决定是怎样,我只想要你开心.
我只想要你到最后记得我曾经爱过你.
只要你记得这世界上还有一个用真心爱你的人.
那就好.= )
乐观看待事情,乐观看待生活.
我就只要求开心.不要求永远了...
因为永远不存在.永远只是骗人的一句词.
时间一秒一分一时地走...
害怕吗?我承认.我害怕.
不再怕孤独,不再怕失望.
因为我要开心地跟你一起度过这开心的时间.
仅仅的52天,我要过得很充实!
小姐小姐...可以让我爱你吗?=))

concerns. doubts. POSITIVE THINKING RULES!

2009-10-26T23:35:00.000-07:00

some asked me,why don't make it public?

i said... because we're taking exams.

some asked me,why don't she admit?

i said... because something happened just few months back and wasn't quite the right time

some asked me,are you sure?

i said... i dont know...

then another one asked me, what's gonna happen next?

i said... i could only just do what i should be doing and don't think about it yet

and in the end, i answered...

if she really wants to play on me, just let it be

if she really wants to hurt me, just let it be

if she feels happy that way, just let it be

i could only know at least i'm still alive

though i cross my fingers tight and believe that she will be the one

there are still part of me that doubts what i have this day

but i am just gona enjoy who i have and what i'm doing right now.

i wouldn't dare to question if she's serious or not.

because i trust her, i don't really want to make myself disappointed

even if the truth is she will disappoint me in the end

i'd just take it and leave it.

because i know, it is not the end of my life with a failed connection

because i know, time is needed to find the right one.

no matter what happens in 2 months from now, i can only pray that everybody will be happy in the end of this chapter of my life.

the starting of a new chapter, the starting of a whole new life, with or without her, i'm gona be the best of who i am. = )

(positive thinking ruleS!)

sometimes, when i look back to the past, how stupid i felt for giving it all in for something that wasn't true enough. but i'm still glad i walked passed the darkest moments in my life. even though it took me quite a long time, i'm glad that i've met you.

not hoping that we would stick together forever, but i just have to tell you, i'm happy being with you. all the others that matters, let's just love each other for as long as we can.

P/S: even if one day you will disappoint me, don't blame urself. things cannot be forced. = )

time flies, and we'll meet again. mwahs*

crabbie missie meemeee~~kakakas

updates. photos only. -ju yin's bday- the ship- batu feringghi night market-

2009-10-23T07:13:00.000-07:00

挣扎.深呼吸.

2009-10-18T04:39:00.000-07:00

是他们把我们带大.
是他们把我们抚养成今天.
我知道当你们知道真正的我时有多失望.
你们那时也没有说你们要我怎样.
只说要我读好书来.以后的事慢慢谈.
我想,我要的考试后的日子,不懂你们会不会允许.
我没有做犯法的事情.我没有抽烟,我没有吸毒.
我只是做回了我自己.明年就要19岁了.
好想跟朋友们一起出去玩玩.
为什么我姐可以去香港,可以去北京,可以整天跟朋友到处去.
而我,就得在家?
是否因为他们要把我改变成他们想要的女儿?
是否因为他们不想要有多一个女儿?
是否因为我成绩不能比姐姐好,脑子没有像姐姐那么好
是否因为我想做真正的自己,他们觉得很荒谬,他们不肯接受?
是否要永远把我绑在他们身边?是否要等到我疯了你们才肯放手?

刚才跟妈咪去付钱买香水时,我说,我欠她的钱,很快就要变三千块了.
然后她就问到三千了没有,我说还没有.还有大概三四百..
然后我就说,到时要拿钱时叫她给我cash,给我去跟朋友旅行.
她就问,去哪里?跟谁去?什么朋友?你知道我跟你爸爸很担心你的朋友的吗?
你们去kl住哪里?谁带你们去?怎么去?问你爸爸.我没有意见
没有意见又问那么多?
没有意见又说道那么一大堆.
有时我很向往考完试后的生活.
我想,去office做工.我想,开online business.我想,赚比较多钱给自己去旅行,买自己想要的东西
但是因为之前发生的事..让你们对我没有信心.
很多人都认为说我如果真的肯努力,我一定会达到我想要的梦想.
而我的梦想,就是做回自己的同时,你们成全我.
给了你们善意的谎言,我真的觉得很内疚.
而这种内疚,不懂会持续多久.
但我很肯定的是,都走了那么久了...你说要变,就能变?
当我问你们时,你们只对我说,你要的话,一定可以的.
问题是,我根本不想要变.因为我虚假不了一辈子.真的很抱歉.
...当我听到你说你没有意见的这些话时..让我觉得..真的好困难哦..
真的让我很难呼吸.很难笑起来.
当时买了tripod和香水.想笑,但却露不出一丝的笑容.
整个人觉得好被约束.
妈咪说,问爸爸.但她却多加一句,"我跟你爸爸都很怕你的朋友的...不懂什么人来的.."
做到我真的好低落...
下午时,从gym回来就去冲凉了...
偷哭了一下...感觉好压力...感觉好辛苦...
却找不到人听我诉苦...
想告诉家人.却怕把事情弄得更大.很讨厌被念,很讨厌被本地大学的这个字影响.
昨天下午时,就到了阿嫲家找表弟表妹.刚好去到时他们都在睡觉,就只有阿姨没有睡...
这个三姨,对我们都很好,都会试着去了解我们年轻一辈的...
当她问我,要读什么时,我说要读business之类的东西..
她就建议我拿private uni才有的degree in commerce.
我告诉她,我也想过.只是我父母...
她就说,拿loan,住她家,用她的车,但要载我表弟他们上课罢了.哈哈..
我也想这样...
只是...问题不在于我身上...
最近功课超多的...所以..当找不到答案时,一定会发牢骚,发脾气,很想哭的...
因为那种面临考试...大考试的压力...真的不简单..
以前考spm都不会怎样...但是这次...
真的是人命关天啊...
当然,我考不好的话,我自己会安排出路的...
只是不想辜负他们对我的期望,我一定要做到最好...
我的愿望,我要的A...2A 2B-
这样就够了...PA and ekonomi...我比较有信心...拿A
剩下的...我会尽量在paper2里下功夫...
我只想要一个属于我自己的家...属于我和你的家.
本来昨天没有事情的,所以就没告诉你了...
但是今天我真的很想爆发...却像迷你火山爆发罢了...
如果考完试,他们还要绑到我死死...
很抱歉,我一定会爆发了...
如果你们说担心我的安全不给我去kl,it's okay.
but if 你们说我哪里都不可以去,就只可以放工回来呆在家...
i'm so sorry, i will have to break your heart.
It's my life. not yours.
It's my future. not yours.
You brought me up to give me the guidelines towards life.
Thank you. But I have my own perspective towards life.
I just want a simple life, with someone I cherish and not live the life you want me to.
Because if I do, it would be your second life, not my personal life.
You gave me things you could give. I do cherish it.
But please let me be what I want to be and who I want to be.
Please just leave me alone as long as I have taken my Degree.
I'd still care if you don't push me.
I'd still come back to visit you if I go away from this tiny little island.
If I fail, it will be my problem. I know you and dad will be there for me.
But I will only learn my lesson if you let me walk myself, run around, and fall down.
Please, for once, try to understand what I want...
Even though you both will not be reading this,
And when you do, i know you'll be scolding me again and again and again
I'm so tired of you all controlling my life.
Please let me be with who I want and what I want to do.
Please...

深呼吸
未来要走的不平坦的路还很远
不管有没有爱人在我身边
我觉得,我必须鼓起勇气面对这些未来的事情
我要努力
我要做出成绩
我一定要成功
失败的话,我不会气馁
至少我知道我正在过我想要的生活
狗,也会不听话,
人,不是狗,
我们根本不需要听话
只需要听自己心里的话!

<3 random.

2009-10-17T23:27:00.000-07:00

*hearts*
It's nice having you. It's nice knowing you.
It's nice loving you. You're in my heart now. = )
Honesty is a must for us to work.
Trust is needed as we both have a distance.
As long as there is the will power to succeed,
Our hearts will be with each other for a long long time.
Still waiting for the day(u know i know) to come,
Though we both know it will be soon before long. *-) winks**
Thank you for coming into my life babe.

I think I'm in love with you. = )

Alright, back to main stuff.
Haven't been blogging for a longggggggggggggggggggg time i know.
hehes. After trials, went down to KL and met you. And took lotsa pics in KL
Just couldn't have the chance to resize it and post it up here.
But pictures are however posted on facebook already.

I've got plans, plans which I wana do after I finish my exams.
Plans that I'm gona make sure I do it.
KL trip, redang trip, genting trip, bei jing trip and perth(still not confirmed) trip.
Gotta earn lotsa money for these trips.
But all on planning already. It's just the matter of time till we finish our exams.
Kakas. Looking forward for the trips down south though.
Penang is filled with people who are terrible. GOshh...
I mean not all Penang people are bad.. but some..
Just so realistic and love to take advantage of STUDENTS one...
><

Trials Overrrrrrr~~~~~

2009-09-17T06:20:00.000-07:00

Yupps. Trials over, but this means the actual STPM is around the corner....
=))
Well, holiday starts tomorrow and i'm really looking forward to my trip to kl.
There'll be lots of photos and i shall update it right here and in facebook.
Comments allowed~~ WAIT FOR MY UPCOMING POST~~~

Long exposure shot.

2009-08-30T21:28:00.000-07:00

Don't know how i got this shot. But i'm loving it!

Something personal...

2009-08-28T07:31:00.001-07:00

It's been a long long time since I've touched the piano
(Been listening to Jim Brickman's album over and over again)
It's been a long long time I've never felt this way before =)
But however, sometimes things just don't go our way
And therefore, we shall always remember that we have our friends and family to hold us back on
I guessed it was too soon for me to believe in love again
I guessed it was too soon for me to feel this way again
I thought you would feel the same way too
But I guess I'm being too insensible
I'll wish you happiness, I will.

I guessed I just really like you.
That's all I could say
No, I don't love you. I just really like you. =') friend's always.

Totally random again.

2009-08-27T07:40:00.000-07:00

Random...

2009-08-19T23:54:00.000-07:00

Should have taken the larger picture. So much noise in the small pictures.

Can't wait to finish stpm and really really put an effort in photography.

Heees. =D

Life's brought to a halt as trial's coming soon.

Study week next week before Merdeka. Perhaps meeting some friends? Still gotta decide on that later on.

Things just keep going on and on and on....

I'm tired, exhausted and would not want to think so much anymore.

Just let things flow naturally. As it's quite clear that chances are thin .

Oh well, I guess I'm ready to move on already...

Just let it flow~~ let it flow.. let it flow...

TA-DAAA~~~~ My first ever photoshoot!

2009-08-08T02:48:00.000-07:00

Mixed together with 25/7 and 2/8
Comments please. Tq. Still got space to improve! XD

Currently...

2009-07-27T23:36:00.000-07:00

Got my D80.

But shall be facing a lot of things in the couple months.

Sorry for the lack of updates.

Yes. I'm STILL single and VERY available...

Come and take my heart away...

wahhahhahahas

sot d...

0808, KL

0815, Out with homies

0822, u wan date me? XD i guess i'll be studying hard for trials....

I've know what I want to work as once i finsh stpm. Ngeks ngekssss...

Love lots. Jo San. signing off after a short post here.

Niknik i love you.

2009-07-16T06:12:00.000-07:00

Utada Hikaru - Come back to me...
P/S: It's a very nice song...

The rain falls on my windows
And a coldness runs through my soul
And the rain falls, oh the rain falls
I don't want to be alone

I wish that I could photoshop all our bad memories
Because the flashbacks, oh the flashbacks
Won't leave me alone

If you come back to me
I'll be all that you need
Baby, come back to me
Let me make up for what happened in the past

Baby come back to me (come back)
I'll be everything you need (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
Boy, you're one in a million (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
I'll be everything you need (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
You're one in a million (one in a million)

Lower east side of Manhattan
She goes shopping for new clothes
And she buys this
And she buys that
Just leave her alone

I wish that he would listen to her side of the story
It isn't that bad
It isn't that bad
And she's wiser for it now

I admit I cheated
Don't know why I did it
But I do regret it
Nothing I can do or say can change the past

Baby come back to me (come back)
I'll be everything you need (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
Boy, you're one in a million (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
I'll be everything you need (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
You're one in a million (one in a million)

Everything I ever did
Heaven knows I'm sorry babe
I was too dumb to see
You were always there for me
And my curiosity got the better of me
Baby take it easy on me

Anything from A to Z
Call me what you wanna but
I open my heart to be
You are my priority
Can't you see you punished me
More than enough already
Baby take it easy on me

Baby, take it easy on me

Baby come back to me
Baby come back to me

Baby come back to me (come back)
I'll be everything you need (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
Boy, you're one in a million (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
I'll be everything you need (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
You're one in a million (one in a million)

Baby come back to me (come back)
I'll be everything you need (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
Boy, you're one in a million (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
I'll be everything you need (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
You're one in a million (one in a million)

Na na na na, na na na na, na na na na na na, na na na...

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Found this very meaningful phrase in WK's post in facebook...here it goes..
一个人的心地好不好,不是在乎那上了妆的外貌,而是拿不上妆的内心.
就算全世界的人都觉得你很美,可是你却没有一个知心的朋友,
到处都带着假面具对事对人,
就算你是天使的脸孔,魔鬼的身材,你也不过只是无人爱的人....

恨你吗?爱你吗?再也不重要了...
五年,十年,十五年计划,会照常开始,
我会把你推我下海的今天当成教训,
我会比以前更好.我要活出我自己.活出我的个性.
你说,很庆幸我们分开了...
那为什么那天又对我那样说话?
你很幸运,我没有早一点看到你的部落格.

五年: 咖啡厅
十年: 夜店或婚纱店
十五年:whichever of my ten year plan comes first, the one left is my 15th year plan

我不会否认我自己有错.但是我可比你好多了.
我知道自己我错.你?
只认为错在我身上.既然觉得那么委屈...
那我就放手还你自由...
你开心就好...
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Baby's coming... I'm excited to meet you baby. Just as how much I've wished you were always around my side. Iloveyou baby niknik. Mwahs.

Sorry guys.

2009-07-11T21:05:00.001-07:00

Shall be busy to update my posts. But will definitely update when my baby's here. XD

人生无奈~我要更努力!我要追求我的梦想!

2009-07-08T07:25:00.000-07:00

我拿gucci了~~~elevate my status???XD

我的第三宝贝*第一宝贝~~请您要安全到来哦~~~还有12天~~~~

Michael Jackson 50 岁就逝世了~~
人生好无奈~~~~~~~
We'll always remember Michael Jackson as the King of Pop!
记得以前很爱看THRILLER的MV~~~
哈啊哈哈~~~

最近发现许多身边的的人都得到他们的幸福..~
也看到了好多朋友都有伴了...
真的替他们开心呢..
有时很羡慕...有时很庆幸...
不管怎样..我相信我的另一半不会离我太远...
就算是要我等..我也会等到某人出现先..
好多人都说...我应该找到更好的..我的下一个恋情会更好..
想想下...也觉得蛮对一下...
至少我知道自己以前错在哪里...
至少我会懂得控制自己的情绪...
至少我会比以前过得更好更开心!
至少我知道我的taste是怎样的了...
我接受不了玩玩的恋情...我玩不起...
还记的那天有人说我思想老古董...
每个人都有自己的生活方式...
那个人或许看不惯我的...而我也看不惯他的...
我有我的motto for life...我有我的性格...
我是个痴情恋者...那又怎样?
至少我会对一个真心对我的人100%奉陪...
好好对待我的爱人...
我发誓...我会比以前更好...给予爱的人更好更多...
因为我不会再随便乱爱...

前天有人告诉了我她遭遇到的事情..
实在不能想象...
而我也告诉了她某些事情..
她说...想起那些事情她都已经不怎么介意了...
而我...为什么还要介意当初的心意是怎样的呢?
说来...她说得很有道理下...所以当提起某些事情时都会气...
现在...我已经决定放下了...
都已经过去了...为何就不让它留在回忆?
回忆也只是一种纪念,一种提醒我们的事情...
不要再犯同样的错...
但我可以发誓...我从来没有跟任何人说过那些事情...更不可能因为不能在一起而唱衰...
我会比以前过得更好..
读好书...出国去还是出外地吧!!
我要离开这一些属于我跟某人的回忆...
因为我知道某人过得不错了...所以是时候放下了...
下星期7月18日,日本鬼节来临咯.
回忆...还记得...去年答应过某人会买风筝给某人...哈哈哈...
轮也轮不到我了啦~~~~
我也不要买了啦~~~~~~
回忆罢了.~~~~~
加油加油!对自己说加油!!!我会找到比你更好的!!!!
My 5 year plan and 10 year plan! I will make it work and successful!!!
Wait for me ms W!! We'll co-operate together!!!

You don't know me anymore...

2009-07-03T04:21:00.000-07:00

Found out something yesterday night.

Was pretty upset about it.

Reason? COS I REALLY DIDN'T SAY IT to ANYONE BEFORE!!!!

I mean seriously, if i really did criticise you like that before i'd admit it.

But I REALLY DID NOT!!

It wasn't me. It was that b*Tch!!!!! ARGHH!!!

This is definitely not the first time I've got into this kinda trouble.

Now that i've changed my password and made a long distance call to australia... I AM SO FREAKIN PISSED WITH YOU LEE SHERINE MCINTYRE!!!!GRRR!!!!

WHY WOULD I EVEN TRUST U AT FIRST!!!

YOU MISLEAD ME TO BELIEVING YOU!!! F*CK U MAN!!!!!!

ARGHHH!!!!

NOW THAT SHE'S SO PISSED OFF WITH ME, U HAPPY LA!!!!

HATE YOU THIS KINDA BACKSTABBER!!!!!!

WHY WOULD I EVEN LET YOU USE IT AT FIRST????

NOW THAT WE'RE NOT EVEN FRIENDS ANYMORE. U HAPPY LA!!!

NOW THAT I'VE LOST HER AS A FRIEND U OSO HAPPY LA!!!

I'M SO GONNA REMEMBER YOU FOR DOING THIS TO ME!!!!

I've always loved you. Till now.

But who I love is now gone. Forever. And the one I love will never be back to me again.

Because I was the one who "murdered" that person at first.

Let the past be the past.

But I am really disappointed for you to believe her.

I never would say this kinda this to you even I cannot be with you.

Just so disappointed with your decision for not even being friends with me anymore.

I just swear I'd never say that before to anyone and I would never do...

Remember our promises? Now it doesn't matter to you anymore...

I'd just go on with my life. My bridal studio. My cafe. My first million. Our first porsche..

Without me, you'll definitely be happier.

You once said that I wasn't around you all the time.

Perhaps you should just find someone who has all the time for you and can give you the world. Because I know I don't have the chance to do so for you anymore.

I'm waiting for that someone. To be awarded with the J.

I still wish it was you. but... I guess you're doing so much better without me.

One thing pity, we are so near but yet too far from reaching our promise together.

Goodbye my love. Goodbye J.

Move on like you never knew me.

Move on and fly with your wings spread wide.

I definitely had learned my lesson.

Slowly, day by day, I'd learn how to grow up.

Life''s good. I'm moving on.

2009-07-02T04:06:00.000-07:00

Am I ready for a new relationship?

Yes. Definitely. But I doubt that I'd find one soon enough though.

Right now it's just me, myself and I.

There's nothing much more better than loving and pampering myself.

Although it'd be great if I had a partner with me.

But oh well. I'll wait for the one to come.

Latest updates:

1. I've got my Gucci bag

2. I'm ready for a new relationship.

3. I've got over someone.

4. I wish that someone would really appreciate who's around her.

5. I'm missing you.

6. I'm loving my life.

7. Still searching for you!!! XD

Shall post up pics of my gucci bag soon! HEHE.

Ya know, I'm so happy right now~~~~~

The Luggage.

2009-06-25T03:50:00.000-07:00

The Luggage.
It's filled with clothes. It follow you with a destination.
It's your luggage full of your belongings and bringing it to a certain place.
I'm leaving for a cause. "Leaving" the house that once belongs to us.
And I won't be back anymore.
I missed the love I share with you. Yes. Definitely missed it. How such a period of time flew pass us and never had the chance to be with each other again. Perhaps you'd be better off living with someone else's "house". Yeah. With someone you love rather than me (the one who loves you).Wouldn't comment much about "us" anymore. As it's the past and just let those memories fade away... We proved to each other that we don't suit each other anymore for the past 3 weeks. Thanks for all the happier times. And gosh~ I bought that thing for you adi! I guess I'll give it to someone who really loves me in the future.
送你一句"祝福你",对得起自己!守着我们以前的承诺是我太傻. 你所损失的,不会只是这一些.本来说好的一切,只会未来的她做. 你朋友说~我跟你不可能在一起.因为我了解你.所以我只能当你的旧情人. 如今就只有自己.课业.事业.爱情?(期待...但我很肯定,不会再是你了)
Goodbye25~Goodnight25~So long25~I won't forget how you treat me25~

-Getting this bag for myself. A gift for myself to gain confidence back in the game of love. To the road of recovery.........-

mixed emotions...T.t

2009-06-13T07:25:00.000-07:00

Seoul Garden with homiessss....

Everyone's favourite Bibimbap!

All of us, Me, Bee Yee, Denise, Sze Yee, Siew sin and Wenlin~ Left out Miss Loh. XD

This was in starbucksss....

Was an unhappy and happy day eventually.
Unhappy cos... Sighs.. Don't wana talk about it..
Happy cos get to meet up with homiessss...
Looking for our next outing soon with miss Loh around.
Till then.~

好想你会是我的.
好想你也是要我.
好想我们会一起.
好想...但是...
缘分...
哎...半年...为什么我还是忘不了你...
给了自己多半年的时间...半年后...再决定...我或许走...或许留...
只希望到最后我们彼此都会开心...
当朋友的我们...其实很可惜...明明相爱着对方...却不能在一起...
可惜...
寻找着老板娘的计划继续on~
但是这最后半年很重要...我要努力...我要拼...我先放弃一切...先搞好自己的情绪...
不再被操纵...我等不及宝贝快点到来...这样我就可以乖乖地爱着它...宝贝...等你好久了...
7月2号...我等你!!!!!下星期要飞了...呜呜呜...你会想我么??? 遐想啦.........我爱你..

Love.?

2009-06-11T00:16:00.000-07:00

What is love actually?
Don't know. Afraid of commitments.
Afraid of falling too deep again.
Afraid of deja vu hapenning again.
Afraid of everything that made me crippled for so long.
Deep inside my heart I really want you back.
But can you accept me... And can I accept you...
I don't know..
Worst clubbing night ever yesterday. But glad to meet you in sega's. Thanks for cheering me up. Shu Yee... Thanks...

如果我说~~~

2009-06-01T01:28:00.000-07:00

"Boss, I'm talking to you lar!!!"

SEE! SO cheeky and chubby lar him!!!

He's wearing a hallmark okay.. Hallmark baby!!!
random pics of me and baby Jin Siang. HEHE. so cute lar him~!!!
Just wana cuddle him and tickle him and make me smile~~~!!!!

目前听着梁静茹的*如果我说*...所以标题也是如果我说..想不到了..哈哈

Allright, let's blog in English larr.. Mid term's over. And I did it quite badly enough to make myself study these 2 weeks of holidays. Promised myself to study everyday before going to KL. Hehes. Yes, I'm going down to KL again on the 12th of June. This time, going to KLIA. Sister's going off to Maldives. Sobs sobs. Gona miss her lots for 3 months. And yeah, I'm so gonna shop again in KL before school reopens?And.. also Japanese food in KL. ngek ngek~~~~~~
Here's a look at Maldives. YUMMY. i mean the water. Nolar. I'm not drinking the water. XD

Chun-ted?HAhaha. My sister is gona be so chao ta~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ when she gets back from there!!! wahahahsss~~~~~
Better luck in love next time perhaps? Sighs.. C's in kampar, S's in pahang, and how could i even missed out that you both were together??? Sobsss.... Oh well, Take it as a experience, take it as a process of living through life. Take everything calmly... Take friendships as the lifetime partnership... Take alcohol~ But don't touch drugs. What the hell am I crapping about?
SS this Saturday~~~~CLubbing~~~~Ngek ngek~~~~
Went to Autocity with.... haih.. dun wana mention it.. sad nia..
Was thinking that I got chance with you.. mana tahu.... But nvm lar. I came in late after her.. T.t.. Helped her to buy the album for you somemore.. But I know doing good stuff for other people has a good return on us someday. No matter it's on our future or what. 我相信,总有一天,好心人会有好报.不渴望什么.只想开开心心跟未来的她一起生活~.
最近,跟你聊得好开心~好希望你是我那一个..但是我知道我们要等一下下...
就像开始时我们对彼此说,要是找到更好的,彼此都会放手.
你说,你不会找到.我说,你不知道.后来我告诉你,我们珍惜彼此.我会珍惜你.你说,你会珍惜我.
好开心.好温暖的感觉.还聊到进大学等等的事情~还聊到好远呢~呵呵呵
不敢再要求太多...这样就很好...谢谢你,在我跟她分开的五个月那一天出现...
好荣幸有你暂时性地陪在我身边.我会很珍惜你的.就像我答应自己,跟她分开后会更珍惜身边的每一个人.因为我失去的实在好多了.很开心,你把我放第一.但是你也很傻..超傻的..给我说了..
希望你听得进啦~呵呵~~~
傻猪傻猪~~~笨猪笨猪~~~傻蛋傻蛋~~~babys****~~~
很好笑的是..又是1625了...16号我生日...你5月2号生日...呵呵呵...

Random... Really really random post...

2009-05-14T07:54:00.000-07:00

HmmMmmms....
Should I get a cufflink on my next trip to KL? Thinking... And also... I should be getting some nice nice shirts. Philosophy and Phenomenal and also Topshop have some very nice shirts... HEHE...KL KL~~~ I'm gona spend spend spend money on myself~~~~~
Mid year exams coming soon.
Yes. I promised to update my blog about wesak.
Oh well. Lazy me.... XD.. reluctant to upload the photos from my camera but willing to spend time transferring songs into my MP3.
Okayyyy..
Exam's on monday. And i'm blogging.... sighss...
Right now i'm just kinda tired..
Lotsa stuff to do tomorrow.
After school, have PA tution till 4.15pm.
Then at night, dinner with someone. HEHE
Meeting someone and someone.
Then hopefully we meet at new world park.
Cos gona catch up with wendy there.
She says there's some miss pageant going on there.
So, why not check out someone yeah? XD
Ahhh~~~ Tak sabar sabar nak tengok u ni~~~~~~~~~~
anyways, gotta get back to my studies..
microeconomics... WOW.. so many things to fnsh...

Starbucks and YOU!

2009-05-09T08:22:00.000-07:00

Today, I can say that I'm really happy.
After all that shitty stuff that happened~
After all the drama I said to someone..
I wasn't feeling very happy. Was actually very pissed.
Who do you think I am?
I've had enough of you wanting me back then showing me your attitude lo!
Think what? You're a Diva ah? Even Diva's don't do that okay!
Even Diva's care for people's feeling. And plus, Diva's have a good attitude lo!
Never mind lar. Whatever lar. You blocked and deleted me adi.
NO point talking also anymore ! You're old enough to take reponsibility of your own actions!
-end of story-

Today, early morning woke up to go for accounts tution.
Went to Mcd for breakfast. Hehe.
Was supposed to meet up with sze yin a.k.a agoni~
My new friend from... HEHE...
Mana tahu that pig overslept pulak~~~
Then nvm lor. went to tution ~ after tution went to buy chicken rice for lunch.
Came back and ran and ran to the gym. WTF. Nola. saja eng kang nia. hahah
Ran 2km and did lots of push ups. Hoping to become fitter!!!
ngek ngeksss
then then.. came back and did nothing and dozed off d~~
wake up. and went to the wesak day procession outside my house.
Took lotsa pictures but was quite blur... Sighs.. waiting for my baby to reach!!
will upload soon lar. Then dead battery.. LOL...
then after that met up with coussie's at ah ma's house.
went gurney with em.
HEHE. then then. bought starbucks for you.
HEHE. you were so shocked when i appear in front of you.
And gosh.. i was blushing man...
wanted to ask for your phone number but.. was too paiseh adii
hahahaha.. then just now. u msged me in msn.
ehhe. telling me that u were shocked and all that..
heheh. u ask me to study hard for exams. smr ask me y so free go gurney
LOL. so happy larr. then i finally asked for your number~~~~
YEAH~~~~then i called josephine and told her.
She say where's hers? I just said i boh kiam her. LOL...
Then she jealous d. LOL..
YEAH~~~~i got ur number~ i got ur number~~~
my diva~~~ my angel~~~ my goddess~~~ XD
yala. got both of u mah. same face mia. haha.
both oso love and like~~ ngek ngek~~~
I'll always remember. I've finally got the courage to buy that for you.
And I told you I will get it for you.
You and hazelnut hot chocolate~~~
Hope you like it~!!!!
I'm taking back my love...I've given you too much~~~~

好开心.同时也很放心.

2009-05-08T03:21:00.000-07:00

This is Me.
Before clubbing. XD

不要活在别人眼里..
活在自己的眼中...活出自我...洁身自爱...
我喜欢的你,快要去别位读书咯~
好想在你还没辞职之前送给你我答应你的东西..
呵呵~~希望在这几天内会见到你吧~我超级想你的~~
哎哟..其实..对你只是欣赏而已咯~谢谢你那天说你要我.....
你要我当你的朋友~~
我已经够开心了~~~呵呵呵呵~~~~
希望明年有机会见到你吧~choi~一定要进本地大学~~~如果不能才希望能见到你咯~
你也说..你怕有一天他不要你了,那我说,我要你...你说...好~!!!!呵呵呵~~
你让我真的很爽咯!!!

刚看了你的部落格,我..还是很关心你..也懂得你写的"你"不是我...
希望你会找到爱你的人..也希望你会好好地走下这条路...
别再继续堕落了.是时候活出你本身的力量.
也许五年后,你会觉得,当初为了我而搞到自己这样,很不值得...
我可以很肯定地说...你的确会感觉到这样...
因为也许到时你也找到一个可以接受新的你,新的态度的人..
我,却不会是你想要的.而现在的你,不再是我认识的.
好好地修养自己的身体,好好珍惜爱你的人.
我会把我们之间的承诺,牢牢记着.
是因为,我依然觉得,到今日,你是我爱过最深的人.

好想要你在我身边.

2009-05-06T01:33:00.000-07:00

好想要你在我身边
好想要你陪着我
好想着跟你一起做下约定
好想要你来我身边
好想要你是我的
好想你会说你是爱我的
好想...好想...
好想你会说你一直都是很喜欢我的
好想你会说你要我在生活上的调整帮你
好想要你说你爱的就是我...
但是..................
我就是偏偏不是你喜欢和爱的那一个.
好想要你说你选择跟我一起过安稳的生活...超级想的...
但是...比起他和他我又有什么能力打动你的心呢?

Crepe Cottage. Homies. The Place. 042509

2009-04-26T06:34:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the lack of updating my blog.
Was busy doing my work and also, HEHE, going out lar.
Anyway, last saturday was our MUET test.
Everything was fine until the listening test. I totally screwed the whole paper!
Never thought it would be so difficult! But oh well, nasi sudah menjadi bubur~
After test, went back home. Then after bathe, went out again. Met wendy on my way back home from prangin. Meeting her that night at The Place for the model search thingy. After that, rested for a while before heading towards siew sin's place with bee yee and wei ting.

Me eating the maxim gelato I've been longing to try. Turns out to be.... XD....

Bee Yee's hand grabbed by Wei Ting~

Wei Ting and her came-whoring-ness. XD. sorry for using this word laaa...

The ever magnificent stickered phone of Siew Sin.

Huhu~

Tin teh nia bee yee's hand. That's Denise and Sze Yee.

This is ME!

Bee Yee examining the works of Siew Sin's handphone.

Best dish of the day. From Crepe Cottage. Mango Cup!
Believe me. It tastes GOOD! and rEALLY good! only Rm11~

Group photo~~~

Ahhh~~~~ Me and two lovely ladies~~~~~ Ngeks
After some photos, sent bee yee back to get her car and fetched siew sin back to her house before heading to The Place. LOLS. Funny stuff happened and... LOOKING FORWARD for our next outing together again~~~ Love you guys muchies!!!!
Here's the nicest thing in The Place. Their Disco Balls. OMG! so many~ Wish i could pluck one back and bring it back to my house!

Photo with Wendy and Penny~
Friends which I rarely have the chance to meet. Looking forward to our next time too~
LOLS. It's been long since I met Penny. Model's that night were damn "sok"~~!!
But too bad, i think they're all older than me. T.t
Oh well, better luck next time~
Till then~
Tomorrow's Labour day, so damn happy. Got replacement class in the morning then its GURNEY time~~~ shopping shopping~~~~~

Kl Trip.对你最后的一番话.

2009-04-22T08:14:00.000-07:00

Remember when I said I was supposed to meet up with my oldies? Yeah. I ppk-ed them and went for KL instead. Reason: My aunt moved into a new house. And damn, 12k sqft of land. and my gosh. I was very very amazed with the house. XD. So, here goes my trip.
Left Penang around 2.30pm. Reached at 6.40pm.
Took the first photo in the toilet. And I tell you, the toilet is nice!!! XD

This is the outdoor shower head. The biggest I've ever seen.

It's a very wide house. And, my camera, digital one, couldn't take the whole picture. Will have to wait for my SLR to come. XD

The POOL. dipped into it after supper on saturday night. Played with coussies till 2pm. XD

*Sorry for the shaky photos* I was pretty tired after the long trip.

*But I still got a clear picture of myself inside the AV room. 52 inch next month? hehe

One very sexayyyyyy chandelier.

Inside bottom= The AV room. Empty yet. Have to wait for the couches and stuff to get in soon!

2nd Floor.

The "demo" kitchen. says aunt.

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The first living room.

Urmm.. Japanese table?

Stepway~

Main door. But entrance beside. One very big and tall door...

The gazebo. Don't know if it's spelt this way. Nice aight?

The flowing water creates Zen in the house.

A sight of the glass door.

Big-Medium-Small

A view of the Curve. Aiming at Laundry actually. XD

sis~cousin sis~me~!

Me on a segway~~~It's a once in a lifetime chance to ride it~ And I rode it in Cineleisure Damansara~Under Mall Cop Competition~ XD

Fabulous life fabulous life. Wait till you see the main thing I bought in KL. XD
I just love my fabulous life. It was a good thing you left. XD. I'm so happy with my life now.

Gucci belt. Gucci Make up Bag. And my Tiffany Bangle. XD XD
So happy.
After STPM, I shall be going down to KL to work and have fun and start a fresh new page of my life! Hehes. Pikom? The Curve? in KL or Stay in Penang and work for Paisano?HmmMmmmss..
STill a long way to go. But I'll definitely be going KL to stay for a long time next year. XD
Thailand, Taiwan~~~~ We'll definitely go there peeps!
Work Work WORK! Clubbing clubbing clubbing~~~ New people new people new people~!!!
I am over you. XD .

*不懂你是否还有印象,我们两年前的约定.我们曾经说过,还有两年,我们就可以一起住了.呵呵~好可惜也很庆幸~可惜是因为还有几个月就满期了,我们都已经分开了~哈哈~我再也不觉得心痛.也不觉得遗憾.我已经尽了力,好好的爱你.可惜你却因为贪玩~就走了~哈哈哈~不过也不能完全怪你.我也有我的霸道.我也有我的任性.只是现在你过得那么好,我也过得很好很好.没有必要再吵闹下去.也好久没吵了~也懒得跟你吵~只想说,你后天就19岁了~虽然不会再是我陪伴你度过生日~但是我希望你的他会好好得帮你庆祝!呵呵呵~还有就是呢,我们说过要一起去kl住的~现在,我比你先下咯~哈哈哈~明年一月就会搬到kl了~有点不舍的,舍不得这里的朋友.呵呵~不过日子还是要过,人还是要长大.您生日,我还是会祝你生日快乐~过后,我们再也不相干~再也不联络~因为你已经有了你自己的生活.半年了,我终于彻底地把你放下了~我爱我的新生活~你爱你的她~哈哈哈~其实,我还蛮高兴你找到一个你喜欢的人.我替你高兴,也终于放心.祝你幸福.祝你快乐.
我的婚纱店老板娘啊老板娘~~~
你在哪里啊~~~~~~~????** nudge nudge wink wink*****

Going to 007 and maybe FAME on saturday night.
MUET exam in the morning. XD.
Band 5 band 5~!!!!
Ilove.my.life.somuch.rightnow.

Takin back my love.

2009-04-17T07:03:00.000-07:00

Go ahead just leave, can't hold you, you're free
You take all these things, if they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams, 'cause you meant the world
So did I deserve to be left here hurt
You think I don't know you're out of control
I ended up finding all of this from my boys
Girl, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so,
You already know I'm not attached to material

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
My love..

[Ciara:]
Yeah
What did I do but give love to you
I'm just confused as I stand here and look at you
From head to feet, all that's not me
Go 'head, keep the keys, that's not what I need from you
You think that you know (I do), you've made yourself cold (Oh yeah)
How could you believe them over me, I'm your girl
You're out of control (So what?), how could you let go (Oh yeah)
Don't you know I'm not attached to material

[Both:]
I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

[Enrique:]
So all this love I give you, take it away, (Unh, uh huh)
[Ciara:]
You think material's the reason I came, (Unh, uh huh)
Enrique:
If I had nothing would you want me to stay (Unh, uh huh)
[Ciara:]
You keep your money, take it all away

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

Ooh, my love
Ooh, my love

Sincerely, wishing you all the best in your life from now onwards as we may not be friends anymore as our condition worsens day by day, week by week, month by months and perhaps, years. Bridal shop tauke niau, first million dollar earned, first vacation together, breakfast in paris, lunch in hong kong, tea in japan, dinner in taiwan. WTF. It won't be you accompanying me anymore I guess. half a year of wanting you back, I don't know why I didn't accept you back again when you wanted. Saw your blog entry again, I never wanted you to cry for me but to cry for the one you really love. Thank you for loving me these 2 years. Now, love her more than loving me 2 years ago. You deserve the best of all. Happy earlier Birthday wish from me to you, J. Our love was strong once. But it was not stable after all. I wanted a steady. But you wanted to get to know more people. Studies are more important than love right now to me. Love is nothing but just a game. I lost in the game of love with you played for almost 2 years.
分开也是一种明白.我给你的疼爱是手放开.让你爱她.再会了最爱的路人.提早一个星期祝您生日快乐.
要开心地玩哦!我不再是陪伴你的人了.让你爱爱爱新的.让自己爱上别人.
明天会去kl了,想起了两年前的我们,一起去kl度过的一切.难忘~不过,还是要放开了...
流泪了,我也不懂自己是否还爱你吗,不爱的话,为什么我会留下眼泪...?

Priorities... Just crap... Lots of crap...

2009-04-16T05:25:00.000-07:00

Have you ever thought of your priorities in life?
Have you ever came across to mind that sometimes what you put first aren't really what you want? Let's give an example of material stuff first.
Would you rather eat a packet of nasi lemak to buy a Topshop blouse?
Or would you rather save the money for the blouse to dine in Bagan or BBB's?
All these varies from different kind of people anyway.
For myself, I'd rather dine and indulge in comfort foods with family and friends.
There was once where i missed the chance to try out the food in 32 at the mansion at Penang Road.

SEE! so nice hor... Peeps, one day we shall go there before clubbing kays???!?!?!?!?
But see you all so busy, never mind lar, I'll save it for someone special. ngek ngek ngeks..
you know, I once said that i want to bring you here for your 19th bday. Oh well.
I guess fate had told us that it'll be someone else? Hope you will have a better bday than last year. I knew I didn't give you enough last year. Perhaps your someone will give it to you? Best of luck girl...
And guess what, Beach Blanket Babylon's Happy Hour cocktails are below Rm15 each!
Indulge in cocktails people! No more Martell and Chivas. You're OUT! ngek ngeksss..
Well, just would prefer something with more taste rather than high alcohol contect.
I just think it would be a waste to my stomach drinking too many hard liquor!
And to my extent, mom and dad are gona buy me lotsa liquor!
Mom's going off to Cambodia next week while I'm having MUET exams in the morning and going to MOIS at night. HEHE. Seriously, I'd like to dine in BBB this time. XD
Phewsh .This week passed by so fast. Gotta study more before I go out already.
Pressure's mounting up. I can feel it. Everybody can feel it. SO, GAMBATEH PEOPLE!
So happy that I'm meeting up nancy, baya, denise, fish and loh wei this weekend!
It's been so loooooooooooooooooooooooong since we ever met. Okay, I met loh wei last week.
But we must take lotsa pics kays!!!! KEKEx.

My priorities:
1. STUDIES
2. STUDIES
3. FRIENDS
4. FAMILY
5. Photography
6. Bartendering. At least learn some laaaa...

Less than 30 weeks till STPM. University, here I come once I finish this leap of my life!
It shall be the most hardworking time. But, I will still go out every week if possible.
Chiks, Clubs, ngek ngeks. I'm finding my way out from all the loneliness after you left.
And surprisingly, i'm doing fine being the single digit.

Had an interesting email...

2009-04-14T06:45:00.000-07:00

An email which I received from Bee Yee.
Was quite interesting. And to the extent, I'm pretty amazed by what it says...
Well, you can however choose to believe it or not... XD
Here's a look of mine..

Youthfulness is your outstanding characteristic. You are energetic and

you have a great deal of creativity, especially in self-expression. You

are outgoing, and probably very popular. Negative traits to watch out for

are an inclination to become too self-centered and interested in shallow

pursuits. You will be happier if you are selective in your friends and

let people get to know the real you.

In romantic relationships, you may have trouble settling down.

Achieving other kinds of goals will probably take priority, at least for

a while. However, many people of the opposite sex are attracted by your

charm and youthful qualities. You are most compatible with those having

3, 6 and 9 personalities. When you find the right mate, it is someone who

understands your ambitions in life.

You have so many talents, you could probably succeed in any career you

choose. Although you are not always highly practical, you are quite bright

and a quick learner. When you concentrate on one thing, you have the

ability to rise to the top

LOVE YOURSELF BEFORE YOU LOVE OTHERS LA!!!
Today, you let me down.
The day before yesterday, I was touched by you. I offered a helping hand to get you back to your feet and go steady with your life with love as a friend.
I cared about you all this while but never tend to make any moves to make you touched.
After seeing your downturn for so long, you finally wanted me back.
But not for the reason you love me so much. But for the reason that you're alone.
You rush into relationships you are not sure of because you fear alone.
You told me you're going to change yourself.
Start by loving yourself more compared to others.
Start by loving family. Because family comes first in every way.
Continue by loving friends and best friends. Then only decide to the way you want to live.
What I have is more than enough for me.
What I can share is half of what I have.
I once shared everything with you. But you dumped me because of the way you want to live.
Fine. I have my life now. I have my love for things and friends and people now.
I don't need your love anymore. Because I'm nothing to you at all.

This April month is a busy busy month for me as I have lots of stuff going on on weekends~
First April week- CLHS badminton Comp.
2nd week- MOIS and QE2
3rd week- outings with my jeng jeng friends.
4th week(guess what, it's 25th April, YOUR birthday.)- MUET(writing, listening and reading), Night-MOIS again for model search? XD
I don't think you're available at your birthday anymore aight? Cos you're probably gona ask your crush to celebrate with you. Congrats for finally giving up on me! You'll definitely have a better life now! And me? I'm satisfied and i have a lot of choices in life!

Busy Saturday-- Mr. BAOZ!

2009-04-11T22:42:00.000-07:00

-A picture of QE2 under exposure shot by me at around 1am.-

Allright~ Here goes my week again... Couldn't find enough time to blog everyday. I check my mails fast enough but still there are always sooooooooooo many mails for me to reply everytime I check it. Be it on forwarded mails or enquiries or notifications or even business opportunities, my mailbox has almost 30 msgs per day! Dangg... Now I've got 45 mails just for not checking it yesterday. My cousin, never checks her mail. Dang~ Guess that she's just a teenager and doesn't really bother much about it. XD

This week has a six-day study week. Was ordered by school Koperasi to take on duty on the ice cream stand. Sighsss.. We work for free for the school. But do it for the sake of green cards! And for your info, 18 times attendance now compared to only 8 last time!!! F*ck man...

The night before, Wendy asked me to go to Mois. Tempted but wasn't invited. So was putting that on second thought at first. Wished Vivien Happy Birthday by 12 and half an hour later she called and asked me to go Mois at night. Okay. Told Loh Wei that I'm going. Sorry girl. Had to go to the other side. Dont scold me laaaaa.. Sure got next time want wert... T.t

Okay.. Back to school, earned rm190++ but short of rm1.10 from the sales of one type of ice cream. Went back to home at 12.30, had lunch and took an hour rest before heading off to Gurney at 3.30pm. Walked around Gurney. Had ladies from faceshop and skinfood and L'occitane and origins to apply stuff on my hand. Was looking for black head removers for my nose. As those who know me well, know that I tak de pimples and got serious black head problems. So, settled for the Green Tea Blackhead Removing yada-yada for RM45.90 from The face shop in the end. Kwon sang woo~ I LOVE YOU~!! Sister went for eyebrow plucking session whiel I took my watch to be cleaned by City Chain. One stupid fibre was caught inside the watch and i HAD NO F*cking idea how I had it. Waited for half an hour for that. And went to top shop. Not to my liking though. Was so dizzy in there. Wanted to go to Topman, but was UN-amazed by Topshop itself and decided NOT to go in. Then, looked in at Dorothy Perkins, none of my liking, not wearing that kinda stuff laaa, but i just love High Street Fashion from UK. Somehow, I just wouldn't buy them from Penang. Now, I'm tempted to go to KL next weekend. Will see if sis got to go to the interview in IBM. I remembered once that my sister went all the way to KLCC to buy underwear from topshop. They're cute she says... SWEAT!

And, you know what's the shop next to Dorothy Perkins??? ngek ngek~~~ ECLIPSE~~
Somehow, I always see her at the counter. And, we both just look at each other again............
Ngek ngek~ My friends think that I think too much. But she herself said she LOOKED at me also what... Aiyooooo..... Yeah, and i know she's unavailable~~~~~
Walked around and went to Switch and fourskin... One bloody "zhau heng" skinny tie from fourskin costs RM49!! WTF! zhau heng till....... *no comments*
"The worst fashion comment is when there is no comment on it" says Nina Garcia, judge of Project Runway season 5~

Went back home around 6 and had family dinner. Went back to bathe and headed out. Meeting up Josephine, Chia Yee, Boon Ling and Wendy at Mr. Pot. Near 11~ went into Mois and came out around 12.30am. After that, switched destination. XD . QE2 while they went back. Sorry Loh Wei and Vivien. Left Mois early...
Tiring day ya know.. Slept till 10. Was supposed to go exercise in the morning. But.. Oh well, next time then~~

Oh yeah, shopaholics in KL, check out www.offerstation.com for sales and happenings in KL. ZARA~!!!! I'm soooooooooooooooo gona buy a ZARA shirt if i go KL. And MR. BAOZ is in Pavilion~~~~~ You knoW~~~~~the super leng leng BAOZ~~~~ And Krispy kreme has an outlet in Times Square KL~!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I sooooooooooooooo much go KL to eat these stuff. Mom wants to go to Petaling Street to eat hawkers while I want to eat Raju's Banana leaf and ZEN japanese food.

Mr BAOZ ! is in Pavilion Kuala Lumpur Level 1, Lot 1.52.

Price = RM 36.00 / 12 pcs

Temptationssss...

Magazines, Models and FnF4

2009-04-08T01:25:00.000-07:00

Dude~ I've watched fast and furious 4. My advice: TO those who prefer import rather than muscle cars, DON'T watch it unless you love mustang and all that. But to me, I love cars with roaring engines and super duper cool drifts and racing.. XD. SO it suits me after all. Went to cut my hair short yesterday afternoon after school. Waited for eddie to come back and start cutting my hair! I wore the blurrish shirt I love so much to gurney. A lot of people looked at me. Don't know if it's my hair or my shirt. LOLS. Then, I went up to buy the ticket for Fast and the Furious 4 from a GSC counter. After selecting seats and all that, when I was about to pay, the GSC crew shot a question to me, "Excuse me, but may I know where did you get your shirt from??" LOLS. I bursted into laughter and my sister went laughing also. Then, I told her I got it from Thailand and maybe she can try One-stop if she wants. LOLSSS. Okay.. At first I thought she was going to ask whether I'm underaged or not. Oh well, 18 year olds do have their way around~ LOLS.

So here's my side view and mischievious look .LOLS. childish? No, it's sexy short hair! And YOU don't dare to cut it as short as me!

Had a very very weird but sweet dream while i was napping. Here goes::::::::::
I was in KL for something. And for some reasons, I was in Pavillion, wanting to go to KLCC. LOLS. So best way around the city is... by the train right? So, while I was gona leave Pavillion, I sms-ed my sister and asked her the way to KLCC to meet her at PIKOM's office. Because I think she's working there. Okay, she replied and I looked for a monorail station to get me to PUDU station and change the trail of my route to KLCC. Okay. Found the monorail station. But it was not like any other NORMAL monorail station. We had to come into some sorta like subway and the place was very small for hundreds of people to come in. One thing enormous was, EVERYBODY WAS QUEUEING UP!!! Okay, to my extent, I had a bob cut lady in front of me. ANd me and her and others were in line and walking up the stairs. Okayyyy. The stairs was quite squeezy as we had other passengers from the monorail coming out of it. Then, on a corner, she accidentally knocked my head with her bag. Well, it was just like a light brush over my forehead. And I eventually pretended nothing happened but
she said "Sorry, sorry sorry, are you okay?"
I replied "Would you replace my head for me if I said it hurts?Haha.." Well, that's me, I always don't make it a big thing if anyone accidentally knocked me or what... So, taking up the joke, she laughed and smiled to me and looked at me in a different kind of way. LOLS.
Then,I said to her "Oh, it's okay, if I ever feel any miscomfort I'll just call you but you have to give me your number", I'm getting pretty darn good at these. LOLS.
She gave and I asked for her name and she asked.. "You don't know who I am?
Adding up " You don't read fashion magazines much do you?"
I said "Well, I'm a pretty darn busy person so that saves much of time spending on magazines?"
While talking toher, Ju Yin, walau.. Ju Yin appeared and I seriously don't know WHY SHE IS IN MY DREAM!!!! Yeah and as soon as i saw her, I said, "Oh Juyin, I'm going to KLCC"
She said Okay, see you next time. and was behind me on the line.
Then Ju YIn said " Oh, you're the fashion model!!!"
I was like " What fashion model you talking about laaa..."
Ju Yin said " That one laaaa.. aiyoo you ahhh.. that super duper hot jeng jeng one ahhh..."
I was like " Okay lor.. But I really don't know her mah. I prefer knowing someone for who they are not what they are. "
She looked at me with her big and sparkling eyes with make up and mascara and I think she thinks that I'm cute? HAHA.
She giggled and smiled bashfully. As I was on the ticketing machine, I said I'm paying for her trip. And before I could figure how the machine works, the monorail came and.. DONG! THE CLOCK IN MY DAD'S BED RANG!!!! DAMN~!!! WHY DIDN'T anyone STOP the clock! And then.. that was my weird dream...

I want to continue my dream with you laaaaa... I didn't get your name... T.t

要明白...生活才能活得更自在!

2009-04-05T00:56:00.000-07:00

明白它们,你会发现你的人生在改变^^

人之所以痛苦，在于追求错误的东西。

如果你不给自己烦恼，别人也永远不可能给你烦恼。因为你自己的内心，你放不下。

好好的管教你自己，不要管别人。

你随时要认命，因为你是人。

这个世界本来就是痛苦的，没有例外的。

你什么时候放下，什么时候就没有烦恼。

每一种创伤，都是一种成熟。

当你烦恼的时候，你就要告诉你自己，这一切都是假的，你烦恼什么？

根本不必回头去看咒骂你的人是谁，如果有一条疯狗咬你一口，难道你也要趴下去反咬他一口吗？

忌妒别人，不会给自己增加任何的好处。忌妒别人，也不可能减少别人的成就。

永远不要浪费你的一分一秒，去想任何你不喜欢的人。

得不到的东西，我们会一直以为他是美好的，那是因为你对他了解太少，没有时间与他相处在一起。当有一天，你深入了解后，你会发现原不是你想像中的那么美好。

这个世间只有圆滑，没有圆满的。

不要刻意去猜测他人的想法，如果你没有智慧与经验的正确判断，通常都会有错误的。

你要感谢告诉你缺点的人。

时间总会过去的，让时间流走你的烦恼吧！

不要因为小小的争执，远离了你至亲的好友，也不要因为小小的怨恨，忘记了别人的大恩。

感谢上苍我所拥有的，感谢上苍我所没有的。

当你手中抓住一件东西不放时，你只能拥有这件东西，如果你肯放手，你就有机会选择别的。人的心若死执自己的观念，不肯放下，那么他的智慧也只能达到某种程度而已。

如果你能够平平安安的渡过一天，那就是一种福气了。多少人在今天已经见不到明天的太阳，多少人在今天已经成了残废，多少人在今天已经失去了自由，多少人在今天已经家破人亡。

恶口永远不要出自于我们的口中，不管他有多坏，有多恶。你愈骂他，你的心就被污染了，你要想，他就是你的善知识。

你不要常常觉得自己很委曲，你应该要想，他对我这样已经很好了，这就是修行的功夫。

世界原本就不是属于你，因此你用不着抛弃，要抛弃的是一切的执著。万物皆为我所用，但非我所属。

学会用理解的，欣赏的眼光去看对方，而不是以自以为是的关心去管对方。

成熟的人不问过去；聪明的人不问现在；豁达的人不问未来。

发光并非太阳的专利，你也可以发光。

你可以用爱得到全世界，你也可以用恨失去全世界。

爱的力量大到可以使人忘记一切，却又小到连一粒嫉妒的沙石也不能容纳。

人总是珍惜未得到的，而遗忘了所拥有的。

如你想要拥有完美无暇的友谊，可能一辈子找不到朋友。

Psst::::::: 昨天看见了您~呵呵~你也看着我哦~!咔咔~我的eclipse女郎啊..原来你的"男友"就是她啊..??? 哈哈哈~世界真小啊...为什么都这样的啊~~~本想进去问候你的,却忽然想到有东西要买所以搭电梯上去了.呵呵~不过还蛮开心你记得我的~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~爽到一下了~!我虽然是喜欢你,但是我不想当第三者.呵呵.受到足够的教训了.与其插进一脚,不如帮你们更好?哈哈~你们会幸福的~!!但是..看了你的部落格...我觉得..你不是真正的快乐...也许你也该为你自己而想一想吧?我愿意当你的聆听者.只要你你肯.我一定很愿意.不管你遇到什么困难,我身为朋友一定会帮你的!还有一点,我虽然喜欢你,但你不一定要接受我.我也只是以朋友的角度来喜欢.不会要求爱.不会要求任何东西.相信你也知道吧?呵呵~友谊永固!

Solvil Et Titus, Cocktails, Busy week!

2009-04-04T23:34:00.000-07:00

That cocktail book is selling for 15 pounds in the UK! It's a great book with really straight forward recipes!

Solvil Et Titus
My belated birthday gift. I've been looking for authentic watches like these. Class yet never go out of style. There's something special about this brand. They have very very authentic and classic style represented in their watch design. Bought this watch on Friday night. Daddy rushed back and took me to Gurney to buy this watch. As for himself, he ordered a CYMA watch. Worn on Andy Lau's hand and costs almost Rm3K. Okay. The price is so far cheaper than maurice lacroix or any other watches from Cortina. The watch is worth almost Rm600. The brand is called Solvil Et Titus. Nice brand actually. XD
On Saturday night, after light dinner, went to Ah ma's house and walked to Gurney. Splitted with mom and walked on my own. Then, was looking around Gurney plaza's outlet and sms-ing and trying on clothes and pants and went to skin food. I have over sensitive skin. Used the Neutrogena Micro beads to unclog pores and my face was itchy. Wanted to buy the product from skin food but it costs almost Rm50. So I asked for a sample instead. If it goes well, I'll probably be back in 2 weeks time to get it. Then, had a call from mom. She asked me to go to Popular and find her. Andd............. She saw this cocktail book. I told mom I'm interested in photography, bartendering and all that. She said. It's okay if I'm interested, but no matter what, I must get my degree in business related or mass com related courses first. Unless I'm doing a double degree, or else I can't consider bartendering and photography as my permanent job. Okay.. I get it... LOLS. Am pretty happy that they are supporting me on buying the D80 from my uncle and getting to know more about liquor. Mommy said that when she's back from Siem Reap, she'd go to the duty free in the airport and buy some vodka and liquer i want to mix some drinks for future parties when all our coussies are back! Happy happy! Hehe. And for photography, they are willing to let me play with it! I guess I really have to put up some effort in my studies already! I would love to get to know more about the bridal industry later on after STPM. Haven't told them about it, but I sure hope I can make full use of my D80! Mommy said on the way walking back to Ah ma's house from gurney "Nahhh, give you a watch and that book as your birthday present!" Ngek ngek! So happy ~~!!!!

It has been a busy week as usual for me. I've been making myself very busy. And at the same time. I'm having fun while doing it. Yesterday, was the CLHS interschool badminton competition. Well, we managed to get to the top 6. Back last year, my partner Soon Ling and I went up to top 8 only. Well, closer already. But there's one thing I'm very frustrated about is the system they're using. Its more like a strategy of arranging the correct people on the match! And it's not really testing everybody's ability to play badminton actually. I just think it was a fair system. Most probably because they need to finish up the game as soon as possible. So, the first, second and third match was the pair who got 21 marks wins the game. And there are a total of 5 games. Any of the team which collected 3 points from winning each game gets to go to the second round. So, substitute are quite useless actually. I don't get the point of their system. Well, I just know that my team didn't push to the maximum because of the system. We could have done better if we're give the chance to play single and doubles together. And yes, you would question what is the point of coming up as a team ? My answer, to prove that we are good players after all. This time, we worked hard for the competition. But they system, arghhh... Just not quite satisfied with it. I believe that a lot of other teams had their great players but was eliminated because of not gaining enough points. Oh well. Kudos to my fellow team mates. We made it to Top 6. And it was fun training for a month plus. To st georgian's , I knew you all did your hard work. Maybe you'll get to win Simpang Ampat next time. Hopefully there's another badminton competition in this coming few months. Because my friends and I would love to challenge more players from other schools. To my fellow teammates, well done and thank you! Was supposed to go for bbq steamboat at night. But due to feeling tired and sick.. The plan was cancelled. We'll definitely have the time to get out and eat some other day.

Ya know, back in school years for you college people reading my blog, we have to hand in our books to be checked aight?Yeahh.. Mathematics checking was on Friday. And surprisingly, on Thursday night I finished my exercise till chapter 5.5. And.... The next day, number 1 to 5 in the name list were asked to hand in our exercises. Was lucky enough to have completed halfway. Just did another section and handed the whole thing. P/S: There is 5.10 sections. I did till 5.6. XD. And... Being so 扫兴~Soon Ling and Josephine both sms-ed me from DOWNSTAIRS! It's written "Gong hei fa choi :-D" from Soon Ling and "Hoho, U kena!" from Josephine. IIsh. U both really must say me like this meh? Hahah! Oh well, but I did my homework and yeah, wasn't afraid to pass it up. Had to borrow a plastic file from Shwu Wei and pass it up. Lols. Then, was feeling pretty tired for the day and was very pek cek during accounts class. So sleepy and hot! You guys have to agree that the weather is so terrible nowadays. Oh yeahh, you guys study in the air conditioned room! XD. But then, all of us should know that it just sucks when we go out there aight? Kena "suan" from accounts auntie lorrrr... Say my body so weak.. BLABLABLA... Gees.. Okay lar. Don't really care either. LOL. Ean Jee joined our PA tution on friday. But for her first lesson, she was barely there for an hour and went back early because her bf came to fetch her and bring her out. Lols. Sweet couple. But arhhh.. I saw a picture where Ean Jee and her Bf took picture. Gasps** It looked like me. The spectacles, the type of shirt I would wear. Except that his hair was dyed. I told Ean Jee, Omigosh.. I think I would look like him if I dyed my hair.. LOLS. She said "Yeah, and that time I would take a picture with you and pretend you're Denis. LOL" sweat laaaaaaa....

On Wednesday, went to badminton training with my team mates. After that went to pasar malam at farlim. Been there for almost a month non-stop. Lols. Well, everytime I go there, I will definitely go for lok lok and and bubble milk tea. So......................................... I got 搭讪 from the bubbly milk tea girl lorrrrr.............................................................
My friends were there and they were like.. surrounding me when I was talking to her...... Well, she started the convo first. Asking all of us whether we're studying or waiting for results....... So................. My friends didn't hear that.. And.......................... I told her lorrr.... Then lehhh.... She started questioning me lorrr... Asking what form larr.. Study what larrr.. Then.. Asked me whether wana teach her tution or not larrrr.... Lidat larrrrr.. Then.. I told her.. Rm 300 lorr... She said.. wahh so cheap ahr??? LOLS... I wanted to tell her, that's included with dating you lor. LOLSSS. Flirty aight?But I didn't larr.. Then, the whole bubble milk tea car was like looking at me. And seriously lorr, that girl looks like Chao Ge. XD . But she's cute but not my type. Haha. Then after taking my bubble milk tea, I paid and left. And usually, I have 2 cups of bubble milk tea one lorrr... After taking a stroll down the food lane, I went back and ordered a second one. She was so happy and started asking me to be her tution teacher. LOLS. I didn't really replied. Then the whole bubble milk tea van's workers started calling me "补习老师", sweat.... Then, one thing very terrible was I forgot to tell that I didn't want the sago. Oh well, then my friends started to pelly me once I talk to her again... Sighsss.. After a chit chat for a while, the other workers had a "reunion" again. Okay... My friends from another place came and they met and chit chat lor. Ean Jee told me she knew her from driving class. Bee Har's friend knew her also. And while sms-ing with Bee har, i said what a pity i didn't have her number. LOLS. But since she's not my type, would just like to be friends with her lor. Then, Ju Yin larrr.. started pellying me already once I took my tea. She said, You see lar, your 魅力~!!! people give you so many 珍珠compared to us ah!! LOL. Okay... I get it lorr... Well, to be honest. There's quite a lot of 珍珠actually.. LOLSSS... Okay larrr. ENDofTHE搭讪Story.

MUET exam's coming! MUET trials are on this coming week?SHIETTTTT...........
I'm in love with this song... from Mayday...
你不是真正的快乐歌词：
作词：五月天作曲：五月天
人群中哭著你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了你已经决定了
你静静忍著紧紧把昨天在拳心握著
而回忆越是甜就是越伤人了
越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割
你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
这世界笑了於是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则不是你的选择
於是你含著眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走著
你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
你不是真正的快乐你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧却像隔著银河
难道就真的抱著遗憾一直到老了然后才后悔著
你值得真正的快乐你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什麼失去了还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此刻重新开始活著

P/S: This has no meaning to me. I just love the way 阿信 sings it!

Life is Fabulous for me right now. QE2~First time clubbing

2009-03-28T09:16:00.000-07:00

Went Clubbing~~~~~~~~~~~
Ngek ngeks~ Yes, I know I told you guys I don't have time. Oh well, with the availability of hot chicks and alcohols, who can resist it?
Haha! Okay okay. Went to QE2 at Church Street Pier near Jetty yesterday night. It was Miss Behave. So called ladies night lorrr... No cover fees and all that.. Yeah~ and to my extent, it was pretty much how I would love clubbing to be! Sister says that I should come and experience this first then only go to MOIS. Lols. She says she wants me to see the difference between a place where more mature people go and where young people go. Okay. Will wait for the chance to club with my besties in MOIS soon. But I think my friends would prefer QE2 lorr.. XD
Needless to say, as usual.. My cocktail drink.. XD . This time I had Cosmopolitan. Love the cranberry juice they mixed with it and its quite cheap. Rm21 plus plus for the drink. And hiak hiak hiak.. I saw my a friend of mine with the mother and other hot chikas and hot guys! The crowd there was pretty much those who are working in the corporate world, mat sallehs and all that. They had great good served there. Oven baked pizza!! No larrr.. the traditional oven okay.. U think i'm so hiao meh... Talk about nothing special mia pizza. LOLS. Okay. It was my sister's friend's birthday. They had Johnnie Walker and loads more. We arrived therer around 12~ Then after ordering our drinks, we finished it. and headed to the dance floor. So many march babies there. I mean among my sister's friend. And there was a girl~ngek ngeks. Hot actually. And she asked me to be her partner for the night! WOOHOOS!!~~ Ya'll will see her in the pics. But didn't have her face lor. Sideview got la. XD. she's apparently from my school. Senior. But now in uni. Oh well. Can't wait for uni life!XD
They had TIESTO's music playing. Techno and trance. Almost all of the songs they played were in my MP3 player and in my ears when i go to the gym! Haha. Especially destination calabria~ The best was YMCA. Everybody just knew how to dance the YMCA dance~! Needless to say, I had a fun time there. But I would rather go with my own friends in the future! XD. And my friends would love it I am sure.

See the girl in dyed hair?Yeah~~~that's my partner~ Hot actually~~!!

Birthday boy was carried up and brushed against the happy corner!LOLS.. lame one..
Went back around 2.30~Slept at 3.30~Woke up at 8 in the morning and pia to tution!

-LEHmaaaaaleii~~!!!!I dont love you doesnt mean you can treat me this way lor!!!FARKOFF!!

When they don't love you anymore...

2009-03-27T06:18:00.000-07:00

当她不爱你的时候要懂得放弃

献给所有得到过所爱却又失去所爱的人，给从未得到所爱的人，给因为仍旧爱着，于是选择自欺欺人的人。这，是一面镜子，勇敢面对，勇敢放弃，勇敢重新开始。
当她不爱你的时候，无论过去她是否爱过后来却忘了，又或者是否是从未爱过。当你无法成为她心里的那个人的时候，她的心便不会记得你。虽然她知道你深爱她，但她宁可选择装作是不知道。
当她不爱你的时候，请不要在你不开心，或者是遇到麻烦而彷徨的时候去打搅她。她那儿绝对不是你此刻应该的去处。也许她会在接到你的电话的时候，淡淡地安慰你几句，却也仅此而已。也许你会再想要一点什么，于是说：“我们见面吧。”而她肯定心有烦躁了。当她不爱你的时候，你的爱，你的人，就会显得廉价许多。你占了下风，这是人的本性。她会说：“好，不过我现在有点事情。晚点的时候你再给我电话吧。或者我给你电话也可以。”而你这时千万不要当真，她只是找了个不是很高明的理由来搪塞你。请不要真的去等，不要骗自己。
当她不爱你的时候，请不要与她讲你的琐事，也许此刻，你不过是希望让彼此更熟悉一些。只是，她却无暇更是没有兴趣去了解你，你的生活，你的过去，你的长处短处与她又何干？即使讲了。她也很快会忘记的，就如她忘记你的生日，你的地址，你的电话一样。没有爱，于是你注定挤不进她的生命。即使，你要的哪怕只是一个很小很小的角落。
当她不爱你的时候，请不要在她的面前流眼泪，不要在生病的时候告诉她。她无法给予你照顾和关心。至多是同情一下。请骄傲的你，不要放弃本来属于你的骄傲。虽然太多的人，在爱的面前丢失了太多。连站起来的勇气都没有。何来骄傲？只是要记得，只有爱自己的人，才可以真正的去疼惜你。而不是旁观的同情，怜悯。
当她不爱你的时候，你的爱便是她的负担。请不要去计算自己的付出，不要希望有什么回报。爱着不爱自己的人，本身便是没有回报的。不要计较对与错。这样会快乐些。要记住，你与她之间的爱，是单方面的，你用心，她无心。所以，也不要怪她。因为也许她也想做好一些。对你不要那样的冷漠。只是，爱一个人，对一个人好。本来就是一种本能。对不起，她没有这样的本能。
当她不爱你的时候，请不要失去自己的自信。因为爱一个人，并非她的优秀，而只是一种感觉。她让你有这样的感觉，于是你爱她。同样，她不爱你，也并非你不优秀。优秀，不是爱的理由。看看还有那么多爱自己的人，淡淡地微笑一下，也是异样甜美的。
当她不爱你的时候，也一定要祝福她。有了爱，便不该有恨。爱是美好的。恨却丑陋。何必让生命中最美好的东西化作丑恶呢？也不要觉得不公平。关于离去。她失去的是一个爱她的人，而你失去了一个不爱你的人，却得到了一个重新生活，重新去爱的机会。
请不要去想到“永远”。爱没有永远。你此刻深爱，却注定遥远的某一天也不再爱她。她只是比你早一步到达了这一天。当她不爱你的时候，请轻轻拥抱一下回忆里的温暖，轻柔地凝视凋谢的温柔。
当她不再爱你的时候，亲爱的，请你深深呼吸，一生的路上，铺满了爱的花蕾，总有那么一朵属于你，不是安慰你。而是，这是生生世世早已经注定的。
可不可以抛弃，不再背负过多的期许，可不可以做自己...

摘取自一个论坛.看完的感想:果然的,很多时候,放下是最好的方法.勇敢面对事实.勇敢面对失败,是最好的方法.不要再欺骗自己.因为知道已经不可能了,就不要再继续纠缠她.尤其是当她已经有了新的恋爱.更不可以打扰~!这样看起来只是个奸人而已.我放弃了.我还爱她吗?我再也不需要说出来了.心里有诉~心里懂~我开心吗?我很开心.为什么?因为我终于可以找回当初的自己.会再为爱的人改变吗?再也不会改变我对她的爱.但我还是会很坏蛋!

Thank you to all of you who had wished me!

2009-03-26T06:24:00.001-07:00

Dokiting's blog
Muahahas~Just saw your blog entry which was like... weeks ago?LOLS.
Anyway, Don't feel bad about it kays??
We'll definitely have the chance to club together. Hiaks!
No worries girl~We'll have our wild night out someday.. Oh well..Stpm is in the way..
But after STPM, all of us will have the time. And there will be no excuses that time to NOT TO CLUB. and thanks for your wish too! XD. We'll be stronger no matter what hits us!　Ngeks ngeks~ Friends forever. I miss you guys too!Bee yee, nancy, Angel tan, wen lin tyre ... etc..
S5F will find time to reunite. XD

Oh yeahh.. I just wana say thanks to all the people who wished me happy birthday！
Here's a list of them either they posted in facebook, friendster and CALLed me!
I'll start with someone.. Lols..She's the first one to wish me. Which was ONE WEEK EARLIER!!!LMAO!
Here goes the list...
Phoebe Ng (First to wish me)
Wing (Osling's XXX)
Jia Li (My leng lui ka jie)
Ju Yin(this girl wanted to be the first one, but she's late already. XD)
Josephine(She was in the "foursome"chatroom. but she's Slowwww. and she left the convo)
Siew Sin Nancy, Angel Tan(Because she's so nice all the time) and Baya
Denise These 3 siao cha bohs accompanied me till 12pm plus plus from 10pm!!
Bee Yee Chatted non stop and talked about funny things in form 5. I miss ya'll!!
Sze Yee
Fany-Bao Jiun
Boon Ling( Sent me a MMS with a birthday song,gam dong!)
Rachael Yuen (The girl who has the same birthday as me! but born in 90')
Bee Har
Jeline
Vivien Ooi
Jun Sin
Nicole Pang
Doki Ting (Miss fabulous! LOL）
Jo Joe
Yi Lin
Alys
Da Hei Xiong (My US friend)
Oh Su-Su (Su Lin Oh laaa)
Kenneth Ng(Coussie from aust.)
Shi Ying
Wendy Lim
Kien(Jo)
Turkey(hooi Kee)
Seow fun
Soon Ling
Yuki~Wenny Ho~(my aussie darling~)
Qiao Hui
Rong Ying
Siang Pheng
Joanne
Jie Li
Yee San
Ah sir(my accounts tution teacher)
Su yuan
Dawnie
Soo Bee
Serene Ooi
Juanita Ooi
Jovy Chou
Shu Ling
Yeong Khey
Jaclyn wong
hazel
Dylan wong
Penny
Eugine dar dar~~~
Mom and Dad
Auntie and Uncle
Dequeen
Su Leng
Jeslyn
Jasz
Miss C from USA is the last one~her reason :Because time difference with M'sia
Okay lorrr...~~~~ hahaha...

To those who wished me~Thanks~!Had a great birthday celebration on the 14th~!
I'm finally 18~and i'm legal~You remind me girl!XD

My sister wished me the next day. Oh well. You're a busy lady in uni. This was happier times back in 2006 Christmas...

Life is beautiful. Life is wonderful. Appreciate before you never have the chance to appreciate that person anymore.

2009-03-26T04:49:00.000-07:00

A Beautiful Lesson. I've learned my lesson. Have you?

The girl in the picture is Katie Kirkpatrick, she is 21 . Next to her, her fiancé, Nick, 23.
The picture was taken shortly before their wedding ceremony, held on January 11, 2005 in the US.
Katie has terminal cancer and spend hours a day receiving medication.
In the picture, Nick is waiting for her on one of the many sessions of chemo to end.

In spite of all the pain, organ failures, and morphine shots, Katie is going along with her wedding and took care
of every detail. The dress had to be adjusted a few times due to her constant weight loss

An unusual accessory at the party was the oxygen tube that ketie used throughout the ceremony and reception as well.
The other couple in the picture are Nick's parents. Excited to see her son marrying his high school sweetheart.

Katie, in her wheelchair with the oxygen tube , listening a song from her husband and friends

At the reception, katie had to take a few rests.The pain do not let her to be standing up for long periods

Katie died five days after her wedding day. Watching a women so ill and weak getting married and with a smile on her face makes us think..... Happiness is reachable, no matter how long it last. We should stop making our lives complicated.
Life is short
Break the rules
forgive quickly
kiss passionately, love truly
laugh constantly
And never stop smiling
no matter how strange life is
Life is not always the party we expected to be
but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful.

Ya know, to really appreciate our loved one, it's so hard to do it until we're finally losing it. I'm so glad that Nick and Katie exchanged their vows in the end. It would be a tragic ending for Katie's life if she can't make it till her wedding day with Nick. Salut~ May you rest in peace.

Got this touching email from a friend of mine. And yeah, I must admit that I've pretty much got the meaning of this message. If I ever love someone, appreciate them while they are still around. Not until we lose them. I have lost someone I love a few months back. Thinking back of the past, makes me no perfect person at all. I am not a perfect person. But I surely did learn my lesson well. Quoted this from a close friend of mine who sent me this messages. I've been receiving lotsa meaningful messages from them. Thanks you people!XD

"人生没有几回,懂得珍惜就是幸福,不要让幸福从中溜走,也不要让自己将来过得后悔,一切全靠自己的命运去掌握,而不要让命运掌握我们自己."

e c l i p s e 女郎~谢谢你~哈哈~!!原来我是认识你的.而且认识你很久了却没见过的.哈哈哈!虽然我们有缘没份,但是我还是很开心.因为至少那天你有留意到我看到你.虽然也只是一望而已.但是你我都互相"电"到~!哈哈哈.只是我来得太迟~你已经有伴~不过还是很开心我们可以当朋友.然而,有一天,我想请你喝茶~可以吧?You're the first one after everything happened. It took me a lot of courage to ask you actually. You gave me back my confidence to start over again. I've found my confidence. And all thanks to you! You're my first crush after all those shitty things happened. And finally, I've found myself back. Carefree, happy, and a better person compared to last year!

Gurney Sale~ Exams~ ME~!

2009-03-24T02:03:00.000-07:00

Allright, here's my photo with my badminton team members. Oh gosh, just for the sake of taking attendance to meet with the Ministry's demands, we had to do this. And there will be more to come I guess. LOL. Anyway,
From top left : Shen Tee, Soon Ling, Jos, Me, Chia Yee
From bottom left: Boon Ling, Ju Yin, Ean Jee, Grace and Rong2!
Having practice tomorrow! I wish it won't rain!!! So all of us can go pasar malam together for dinner and relaxation after 3 days of test. LOLS. More test to come soon. Mid year and Trials.

In my previous entry, I said that i wanted to go to Gurney's annual sale right?
YEahhh.. I went. And this time, with my aunt. Cos my mom told her I needed someone with CIMB credit card in order to get more discount in a leather shop. So , she agreed and boy, I studied like shit the night before cos I knew I was going to shop all day long!
So here's my stuff I got from Gurney the other day.
Had a leather wallet. And mom had a leather pouch. I do think leather is nice. XD. Not a PVC fan. Mom's pouch is cool okay? I love it so much. Finally, i could find some excuse to switch bags with my mom! XD. Hers is so simple and it has a nice compartment and a leather strap too! So if any snatch thiefs would wana snatch her purse, she has the strength to hold him back and wallup him with her purse! I did a demonstration in front of her. And.... Yeah, she laughed at me.. Oh well...
Anyway, I finally swapped my Debit Card. YES!!!!
I treated my sister and aunt Sakae Sushi for tea that day. And the feeling of using cashless purchase is soooooooooooooooooo NICE! But, all this has to stop soon. XD. I need money to.. HEHE... XD... anyway.. here are some pictures I took of my wallet.

Hello Country Hide, Bye bye LV.

Comparisons.

Its a scout logo. Don't know why they used it...

And see! THIS IS A REAL LV OKAY! GOT cert and all that one ah!XD.. wahahhahas
Almost real LV lorrr.....I lied.. XD

Mom's pouch. I will borrow from her someday! XD. It's nice okayyyyyyyy

Oh yeah. bought a new belt. D&G white belt. TOok this picture before going for shoppign

-The best way to wish someone happiness is to shut up and move on with my life-
-e c l i p s e 女郎~~~~原来我认识你的!!哈哈哈哈!!!

I love my Life.

2009-03-20T07:15:00.000-07:00

Duhhhh..
Somebody was on suicide call yesterday...
Phewshhhh... Thank God you're okay already...Was worried about you okay? Don't do this to me again. Life is more precious than anything else... I won't cry for you one okay? COS I love you too much(as friends nia okay? Don't simply think again my darling C)~!!! WAHAHAHAS.

PLEASE PLEASE... PLEASE!!! LOVE YOUR LIFE!
I LOVE MINE!
LOVE your life!
Another thing is.. If you don't love your life, nobody will love you.
I love my fabulous life with my shopping and friends!
I love my family. I love everything around me.
Just that I don't have love for that special someone.
Not now. Not so soon. Will wait till I meet the right personn~~~
When are you coming leh?~?~??~?~

Sorry to CH. Rejected you again. And yeah. You have the right to be super pissed off at me. But instead of telling you that I like you, I think it's best that we're friends. Cos friends are for forever. Love is not. No, not because you're not hot enough. Just that I'm not connected. Will talk to you later on when things are soothed out. Cheer up okay? I may be the worst one you ever met. You wanted me to care about you. But i just treated you fairly like how i treat others. Can't force me out okay if i really am not connected....

Special someone... I'm waiting for you...
If we ever meet, I'd like to have a photoshoot for you with my Nikon D80~
That is on July lar... XD
Then will make it as my gift for you~
As your memorabilia from me to you~!!!
Excited about the photoshoot? Yeah.... I AM...
But things will have to wait till I found you babehhh~~~

P/S: I love my life. I love my fabulous life. Live life, live fabulously!

2009-03-19T05:38:00.000-07:00

Of damned fools and lies.
They cheat us.
They belittle us.
They think we're idiots.
They are selfish.
They are the best when everyone else is trying hard to be the best.
They think they are great in a sense that they have NOTHING except alcohol and drugs.
They snatch people's precious things and even people.
They are contagious.
We may spend a lot.
We may have a lot of branded stuff.
We want quality. Not quantity.
The world is changing. The people are hating each other.
Don't think you can fool us.
Because you are just a fool yourself for fooling us.
DAMN YOU PASAR MALAM VENDOR . Not all.
BUT YOU! FOR telling me that IT IS AN ORIGINAL LOUIS VUITTON!
YOU JUST NEEDED YOUR FIX AND DEMAND FOR THAT MONEY!
DAMN YOU!!!!

[[Life's changing, I could feel it]]

2009-03-16T17:47:00.000-07:00

Had a deal yesterday, one year from my birthday. LOVE.
Succeed or not, it's all up to my effort.
Just don't get it how my wish could turn into a blackmail.
Heated arguments, shouting over the phone. So tired. Tiring okay.
Called one of her friend's yesterday. Talked and, looked for some answers.
She's glad that she's worried over him and all that.
And yeah. I sensed something between him and her after all.
And I'm pretty sure, they are happy for her after she called it off with me.
Thinking over the mistakes that I've done.
Yeah. Sometimes, I hope that she'd be better off with him.
Sometimes, I hope she'd be better with me.
Knowing that I've been comparing myself to him.
I could only say I lost to him already since the beginning of everything.
What could I give back to her? I don't know.
I seriously don't know. Don't know what I could do again. Don't know what I could do to win her back. But I only know I'll be very very busy and limiting myself this year for the sake of my studies. Selfish? Yeah. Cos that's my future.
Oh well. I'll be busy for a while. yeah. For fucking 8 months of studying and events to attend!
No. Not with fishing okay...
Don't think that I'm so perverted laaaa...
I just made quite a number of new friends..
And reunited with some of my old friends..
Oh yeah. Getting my Debit Card today.
Shopping therapy after exams..
Besides that, MUET exam is coming too.
Have to read up more papers and mags.
Had a chat with a friend, Su yuan who is now in NZ...
Asked her about her part time job of being an assistant photographer.
Hmms. Well, she says I can look up to her if I need a job later on in a bridal shop.
She's amazed of what I plan to do in the future.
But surely I need a business degree to get me around first.
Ngek ngek~ I finally can get my hands on the bridal industry~~!!!!
Excited yet long way to go.
8 more months. Till STPM. gan cheong? YALA!
Exam's next week. Monthly test. Sighs. Haven't been studying but blogging a lot.
After exam, then there's the CLHS badminton tournament.
Then school sports day event. BLAAHHH~!!! SO many things to do and prepare.
This time, we must win in the CLHS badminton! Surprisingly, my Relay for Life team is also my badminton team. Not exactly all but most of them. Hahha!
Waiting for muh ka jie to come back from uni.
So we can go buy belts and watches together. Hehe. That's my bday present k~
Gurney plaza's annual sale is on 21st March. GEEE. Tempted to go .
Sadly, daddy is not around and I couldn't get my hands on my wallet.
No. not because I don't have money.
It's because I can't get an extra 10% off from his CIMB credit card.
He's off to Jakarta on Friday. And that leaves me and mom... AGAIN! sian ah!
Mom's going off to Siem Reap on April 25th.
And that morning, I have my writing exam for MUET in school.
Would be free after exam anyway.
See. So damn packed adi my schedule. Where got time leh?

This funny conversation between me and my friends.
They wished me happy bday. And posted it up on their blog. Happy happy~!
Thanks girls!

Si gui nancy and baya. still call me Jo NENnen after form 5. Cham~
Hahah. But happy happy~
Nancy's blog~ What she said on her blog. XD
Part of it only laaaa..
Won't be writing in Chinese anytime soon.
Time to practice my writing skills in my blog. Sighs. Why the fuss over it people?
Because higher bands in the MUET decides whether you can go overseas to study or not.
Tried IELTS in school the other day. Easy for listening. Not sure about writing and speaking generally. XD
GAMBATEH everybody!
Let it all out for this year's STPM!